looking back
what a turbulent love affair that was.

shaza

1. A very beautiful and sexy female.
2. Beautiful smile and laughter
3. Graceful; full of beauty, inside and out.
4. A female who is often very sizziling in her temperment, termed as "too hot to handle"
"I want to marry her, she is so Shaza"

Man 1: "My girlfriend is so Shaza..."
Man 2: "Your so lucky!"
Man 1: "Yeah but she is also too hot to handle"
Man 2: "ohhh... you got the complete package of shaza"

courtesy of luqman for giving the link
www.urbandictionary.com

and the sun was wondering if it should
stay away for a day.

my dearest annae has left to paris.
i hope all goes well for him.
i guess now its my time, to step up(:

attempt something new(:
you're craving for a change

You could be feeling like you're
in the grip of a whole bunch of really selfish impulses.
Maybe you are.
The question is, is this a bad thing?

The answer could be: Not entirely.
Sometimes you need to take care of your own issues
before you can help anybody else.
On the other hand, out-and-out selfishness is not optimal.
So take a closer look.

Where are you just taking care of your own, legitimate, important needs?
Those are places where you aren't being selfish: You're being responsible.

in conclusion, he is probably mistaken and naive.
for once, someone more naive than i am.
i am not selfish.

i dont like people altering my plans and telling me what to do.
if thats how a relationship should be, then i'm not ready for one.

2:31 AM

Friday, October 02, 2009 »

my brother's leaving to paris this sunday.
its going to be hard for me.
but i will have to take it, like a big girl(:

& now, i'll be the big sister at home to shahira.

2:53 AM

Wednesday, September 30, 2009 »

all i need right now, is just a friend.
do you want to be a friend?

sometimes i wonder how strong my mum can be.
so admirable.

everything will get better(:
all you need is just some time to handle it on your own.
its only YOU who can make urself feel better.

there's a hero,
if you look inside your heart
so when you feel like hope is gone,
just look inside and be strong

3:17 AM

Tuesday, September 29, 2009 »

its my 20th birthday and i am so thankful for everything i have(:

i am definitely blessed with amazing people in my life
& i hope it continues.

this morning, i had one big heart attack.
shree and sharon in my room, with a cake and singing, while i am sleeepin!
one of the totally shocking suprises, when i was looking like a babi.
should i have known, i would have slept with a nicer top. ahhaha(:
thank you much shree and sharon!
e sweetest part was them, waking up at 630 to take the bus and come over.
super touching. very touched.

last night, ANAND&friends came to suprise.
with magnum ice cream, cause no more cake shop open! hahaha
this one also another shocker. cause i didnt expect him too!
veyr nice of them. though i know his friends prob were forced! hahah
thank you so much anand, his lovely gf and his friends(:

i received, super nice, heartfelt text msgs from luqman and ash(:
luqman, thank you for that text.
meant alot. very nice of you. thank you for always being a friend.
& ALWAYS being there(: always keep in touch.

ash, your msg was super duper duper long.
prob saved it in ur drafts and send it to every other girl or soemthing! haha
kidding. it was a very nice text msg.truly, considering the fact that we just recently got to know each other!and have yet to really meeet! ahahha
thank you ash

MAVIS NG(((:
sent a text all e way from AUSTRALIA. so sweeet of you man!
hahah. i woke up, before the shree and sharon suprise, SMILING when i read,
"guess who i am? the one who love playing with ur funny bone!" ahhaha
instantly, i knew! hahaha
love you man(: so much la mavis. hahaha.

and my little sister's msg so touching la!
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY:) you are e best sister ever. if u were not there to guide me through, who knows what i will be today. haha;) i love you so much;) thanks for everything you have done for me! YOU ROCK;) HAPPY BIRTHDAY shazawani akka ;)
love shahira"
touching ah. hahah.shahira kiram. i love you la.

thank you for all the text msgs, calls, facebook msgs, emails(:
THANK YOU TO
mavis, vinod, savrina, samirah, paris (yan ling), thinesh, sanam, shankari, brinda akka, harminder, salihin, azlan, shree, farook, aunty chitra, suha, indren, Amala, Mala, louissa, vithya, naish, ash, uma, harresh, uncle ramu, liwen, ghazali, benazir, babu, idreez, kishaan, ramesh, vicknas, susanne, anand&friends, nantha, manshya, viki, viswanath, Thishalini, Shangari, zahra mustan, ameer malik, neera,anjana, sajetah, sathish shawn, haresh venga, shanky, Deej, vinod(braids), syarifah, iffah, nurmalah, sajui, kani das, cara loh, vishnu, ashraf, iskhandar talib, Hafizd afro, trishna, Hafiz mohamad, Amrit, philip, wahida, kishaan, jaseema begum, erywn, NAUFAL, rahman, pratip, maria, maha&sudesh, khanthan, nadhirah, suganti, pravin, jananee, sunita, kavita, miss zeelia, kabilan, shalini, illyasa, JABA, jana, janet andrew, sumitha, sathia, justin john, hemalini, madhavan charles, rachelle paul,keerthana, rishi, vicknesh, seema, hassan, darrel, Nur stelfa, sindhu achudan, Bhairavi Manimaran, feros shah, Banu Sara, Eswari, Melissa Alex, Nirmal Raj, Sandhya Perumal, Gagendran Nair, rugaiyah, Nabil kapadia, Iyswariya, Saras, Gowri, Sathia Dimple, Angela, p.vicky, Raymond, Luqman hakeem, nithin, shangeeta, cute, prasath, narash, ONG JIN WEN.

& MY FAMILY.
my mummy.my akka.my anna.my shahira. my daddy(:

to vinod, for planning the other suprise at the chalet with my mummy.
together with vithya, louissa, and joel(: thank you!
vinod, the cake you bought the night, super duper nice!!!!!!!
thank you.

my office stuff got me a cake(:
and sang me e birthday song. hahahha.

so veyr nice of them. though initially damn shy and embarrassing all.
work is good(:

my 20th ended with my meet-up with louissa and vithya(:
at esplanade(:
it was nice just talking. and relaxing.
the best part was the singing song part. hahaha!
it was e most creative, interesting birthday song with remix, variations and beat box sound effects all. ahhaha
love you bth. hahha.

my morning started with two lovely ladies,
and ended wit another two lovely ladies.
i love all of you very much.

thank you so for my 20th a sweeet and simple event(:
nothing more i could have asked for.
i am honestly a vyer lucky person.
and i cherish and appreciate all that i have.
all e amazing people in my life.

8:47 PM

8:39 PM

i wanted to write out the birthday msgs i got.
some of the meaningful ones.
but decided to type it all out instead(:
so that i can always look back and read them(: hahhaha.

but i am not sure if i will publish this post, or i wont

Louissa
shaz, in case i cannot tahan and fall asleep, let me be safe and wish u first.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! hahaha i love you loads. Have a great great day 2mr!
God Bless You(:

thinesh
-please read this msg at midnight.
see. wont listen to me right. i'm afraid i'll sleep. so just in case,
happy birthday girl.

Anand
Happy Birthday Shaza begum. haha. you have been a good but useless friend all this while. haha. enjoy this day. take care and keep smiling.
cause of the smile i wanted to know you(: love you my friend. once again,
happy birthday.

Arvin Ash
Yeaup. what can i say? Im friendly:) haha and yes, you're a diamond la mike.
the first girl i met that talks more than me,
the first girl i met that laughs more than me,
the first girl i met thats more irritating than me,
And the only girl, i'll meet with a smile weirder than me. You're for some strange reason hot,and for some strange reason cool. You've got the formal side on the outside as a disguise, even though its obvious that deep within its makkal that lies.
You're full of funny dialoge, crazy quotes and pick up lines, all of which you probably chuuri from the internet and from all the roadside romeos that recite them to you at chijmes haha. And and you got that sabertooth smile that leaves a mark for way more than a while. you dance really well, after watching 8 facebook videos i guess its too obvious to tell. anyway of i carry on bragging abt you and measure down the time it took, it would be enough time to write a book. so i guess i should end it here, pick up my beer, and offer a toast to you, happy birthday(:
it was a pleasure knowing you. perhaps if there was a flaw in you, it'll be that usually you're way toooo busy to find a way to sms me. i'll but you 4D the day you tell me you are finally free;) hahah


Mavis Ng
Hey shaza! guess who is tis? hehe. Someone who always disturb ur funny bone in pri sch! hah, anyway, happy birthday and have a gd day(: caht soon ok.

sharon
you are one of the most beautiful friend i have gotten. in heart and in appearence. e day i met you we wasnt that close at all. time went by and we became closer and i have never once regreted knwing ya...(:
happpy birthday shaza za za za! haf a great day ahead! stop laughing at e phone....hahaha

sanam
hello my darling, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY! i wish you all e happiness in the world and i pray that you're always smiling. and dont ever change the person you r ok? cos ure such an amazing person and i treasure our friendship though we dont speak on a daily basis or meet often, you know you hold a great importance in my life. of cos lahhh,
6 yrs old to now. AIyah love u ah. happpy bday again. mwah, i love you.

Luqman
happy 20th in advance. you'll prbly be swamped with texts & calls tmr, so i thought i'd wish u tday instead.
may all your tmrs be filed with love and happiness. you've beenan awesome friend, th best a guy could ask for. i basically love you, in every sense of the word but you already know that(: and if you've noticed i haven't got you anything for your pass 2b'days. well i have my reasons. enjoy your day zawani. i'll see you sooon(:
and sorry for the super duper long text. haha
love,
your english speaking luqman(:

2:02 AM