Monday, February 26, 2007 »
feeling a lil effed up.
had to get up to blog abt it.
baldevan.i just want to tell you that, you're an awesome friend.
cheer up.
and i hope you've thought everything through already.
hope you change your mind. whatever it is. you're still precious(:
i suck.
sometimes you wonder if this fight is worth while.
listen to your heart,when he's calling for you.listen to your heartthere's nothing else you can do.listen to your hearti dont know where you're going and i dont know whybut listen to your heart before you tell him goodbyeso much to mention but you cant find the words.
have you ever decided not to be a couple because you're so afraid of losing what you already have with that person?
could i be feeling this way?
i'm one CONFUSED eee-diOTt
11:41 AM
i waited at nokia to service my phone for two hours jus to leave at the last minute.
i'm super stupid and dumb la!
had lunch with manshya,nigel and sam at mccafe.
nigel rocks.
he painted my nails.ahahha.
nis dropped by.
bought butterscotch cookies for arwin to cheer him up.
baldevan and i delivered them to im personally.
cabbed home with arwin and baldevan
11:38 AM
Sunday, February 25, 2007 »
suprised feez at sarpinos with a very lovely HEARt shaped cake.
vithya came over. we watched dhool together.
was suppose to watch it over at karthik's but since karthik wasnt going to be home,
vithya and i decided not to go.
baldevan met us at eunos then we headed to katong with nis
for the suprise.
baldevan and i have been taking taxi everywhere.
he damn rich(:
11:34 AM
Saturday, February 24, 2007 »
VISITED CHAN NURUL AT LIDO,STARBUCKS!
i know she loves me.
well arwin wanted to meet her.
so well we did.
and for the first time in my life,
i was super close to fireworks. like it was just above me. we saw it come our from the thing!
i can swear that my heart shook!
the vibration was WOW!
kishor joined me and arwin after that.
for the first time after a long time, i went home super late.
like reached home at 1258!
gosh. not a very good thing.
cabbed home with arwin.
and baldevan and i ):
everythings okay now.
12:41 AM
Friday, February 23, 2007 »
VITHYA ROCKED LA(:
went for the SAJC ICS concert.
pretty alright.
vithya's dance was "OH-MY-GOD"ly WOW!
and roar!
i'm forever getting lost at arwin's area.
the last time i was lost karthik was there to save me.
today!! roar! but i still managed to find my way.
baldevan CAME AWFULLY LATE!
and vithz has awesome taste. in guys
i'm happy i went cause i saw ASHWIN!
super cute guy. not to forget INDIAN!
i thought SAJC was the last place i was going to see him at.
BUT NO!
saw him at macs. ROAR!.
really total eye-candy.
and the interview today went well.
just see if i do get the course.
most prob will not. okay shant curse myself.
i might.
i dont know.
all of ur were going to club today after SAJC
and we were already outside the club at clarke quay at 1213
when I HAD TO LEAVE!
roar! they must all be having so much fun now la!
to vithya and sandana
SORRY BABES):
to arwin and the rest too.
chan nurul at DXO tonight,
must be dancing all the way too!
i'd like to end today's post with
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEXY DB PARTNER(2004) OF MINE(:
thanks for all the lovely times spent together.
starbucks.gelare!simpang bedok(:
have a great year ahead.
and i havent seen you today!!!
I LOVE YOU(:
you know.
at this point in time, i'll not want to trade my life with anyone else.
i
love everything.except for tonight. but i;m cool with it.
its only for my own good i reckon.
10:04 AM
Thursday, February 22, 2007 »
ARWIN CAME OVER(:
everything that can go wrong, will go wrong-murphy's law
and so it did.
the interview was supposed to be today.
but gosh. it seened as though god just doesnt want me taking this course!
damn unlucky day.
except for the part arwin coming over la.
he helped me draw. and instead took the drawing home!
gosh.
its great to have found an amazing friend in arwin.
9:58 AM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007 »
GHOSTRIDER. ROAR!
watched it with arwin at bugis. pretty cool movie.
popcorn is loved.
vithya came over(:
and TP called this morning for the interview for visual com.
roar. i'm still doing my portfolio.
actually havent done.
and i realised. sometimes being nice is a price to pay.
we just get hurt. right vithz?
the gf of ex called. interesting.
i'm thinking. life's pretty, why complicate it?
you know. what i want in a guy? like my guy?
which as of now i dont want one but actually what i want?
i used to think that i want a responsible, honest and reliable person right?
but i can only get that man when i'm forty.
so well.
it'd be nice to have someone who respects you. physically.emotionally.
appreciates.
and as beauty is skin deep, to have someone love u for you!!
like i want a relationship based on an emotional level first.
like a friend first. then if it blossoms it just does. if its stagnant. then it wasnt meant to be.
but seriously as of now, to me relationships are pretty much over-rated.
quite alarmingly disgusting to me. esp when i seem many in it for lust.
and gosh. i dont need it.
i want friends.
i want to be happy.
meet happy people.
and grow.emotionally.
find out things i really like or love or hate about myself and everything.
understand myself better.
besides. i'm still in the past.somehow
10:03 AM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007 »
had an awesome time with chan nurul.
once a bestfriend, forever a bestfriend la.
she bought be butterscotch cookies((:
gosh we sat on the rocks. and was just talking about random stuff.
baldevan joined us.
was okay la when he came.
and u know what?
baldevan always takes cab to send me home then takes bus back to woodlands.
super sweet rigght.
i know
and he massaged my feet again. i have proof!
i'll UPLOAD THE PIC!
and he bought me BLACK FOREST CADBURY
and i'm blogging all this. coz he wants me to. ahaha
kidding.
ahahah.
baldevan baldevan.
and CHAN NURUL. i'll spend more time with you. promise.
sorry for being such a awful bestfren.
I LOVE YOU!
and baldevan thinks i said i love you to him. cause he's on the phone now. damn terasa.
ahahha
okay and rmb ur talk?
i need a BESTFRIEND and A BOYFRIEND
and you can be that bestfriend. and u must hate me now.
but i love you still.
but sav n nis more
11:45 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007 »
I SAW FIREWORKS(:
you know how we normally plan to see fireworks.
tonight was just awesome. baldevan and i were walking through the esplanade underpass
and like. the officers said" hurry. fireworks in one minute!"
super lucky right.coincidence?
well there's a fine line between coincidence and fate!
so we watched the fireworks. damn! if only i was there with my BOYFRIEND!
ahaha. instead of baldevan. not that i have one now. ahahha
so the earlier part of the day was spent with, sindhu, vithya and prakash.
and a girl lookingguy. a transacxite? sont know hoe to spell. lazy top check dictionary!
came after me la!
i was super scared la.
i held baldevan's hand super tightly! ahahahaha
an experience.
scary one.aahahah!
baldevan and i followed vithz to see pravind and ashwini.
then we walked alot!
then went home. no wait. we spent time together at esplanade. just sitting
and oh yes. the lovely baldevan MASSAGED MY FEET.
rocking hey? how lucky can i get to have a friend like him!
baldevan. you're appreciated.
thoguh we've been quarreling alot. due to ppl casting an evil eye on us. cause we so happpy together! ahaha
11:37 PM
Friday, February 16, 2007 »
vithya, sindhu and i met for lunch at marina square(:
we were talking and bitching abt our exes.
except for vithya la. who didnt have to bitch. well. much!
ahha.was pretty awesome. considering the fact it was the first time we went out with sindhu.
well vithya and i have been out a couple of times already.
and guess who joined after that?
our beloved BALDEVAN(:
duh!
ahaha
u should hear his scooby doo laughter and some tamil song.
he entertained us.
and then sindhu's friend joined us at starbucks for awhile.
starbucks was fun. seriously.
when i get the pics a shall upload them and u shall see.
and two pretty ladies(sindhu and vithya) and one normal one(shaza)
sang a really lovely song to cheer up the moody, angry baldevan.
it goes somethin like this.
"narash is no ordinary harresh
neither is he plain suresh
because he's just narash!"
and it goes on la.
we had actions also okay?!
he damn lucky la
and for the past few nights
vithya, baldevan and i have been having super long conversations till like
four in the morning.
damn fun. we played some rhyming game. narash's fav.
and vithya and i rock at it!
11:26 PM
Thursday, February 15, 2007 »
tonight was lovely.
had dinner with karthigeyan's family(:
i totally enjoyed myself.
THANK YOU AUNTY CHITRA AND UNCLE LOGAN(:
was damn fun. really.
a night like this. comes by once.
i swear i feel loved.
and seriously. aunty chitra's damn nice.
it's just sad that things between me and you-know -who is gone.
and well.
i realised. loving someone and being someone is totally, entirely two different things
i was dumb, naive and stupid. and nt to forget. immature! hah!
i loved(well strong word), i think maybe liked is the word, someone.
but i feel we should be with someone who treats you well.
loving someone and being with that person. who doesnt treat u the way u want to be treated
is stupid.
and i know i cant treat my special someone well either.
but i know i can be a perfect friend.
and all this is pretty redundant.
11:02 PM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007 »
HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY TO EVERYONE(:
was so very busy this morning. but the night ended very well.
spent the night with arwin, narash and kishor at holland V at wala wala.
while they drank, i drank coke(:
and oh yes. remember how i wanted to suprise my mum?
i did. and it was successful.
she was so happy la.
i stood outside her office at ard 530 and when i saw her
i shouted "HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY MUMMY, I LOVE YOU!"
roar. she must be damn lucky to have me!
had dinner at macs for ahwile before i left.
and OH YES!
narash sucked up to my mum. he bought her chocolates.
sweet la. but still.
and oh yes. ARWIN MADE US WAIT FOR 1 HOUR!
and gave some stupid excuse.
but well since he paid for me. everything's cool.
10:53 PM
Sunday, February 11, 2007 »
roar! i love having friends over at my place.
and so. as i was suppose to take care of shahira. i didnt go town
but vithay, sandana and shankari came over((:
we watched dhool together
was super fun la. and then we danced. ahhaha
damn dark cant see much
i totally love being the host. come over whenever. anyone.
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thats vithya! caught lying! ahaha<3>
thats shank and i((:
my savior. i panicked while frying the nuggets and all i could think of was"where's shank"
thanks.
the night spent at my place was really fun.
8:56 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007 »
ROAR!
am super elated.
got the results.at 3:11pm
and for the first time i had tears. tears of joy!
roar!
i rmb exactly how i felt and what happened.
sav, read!
i took the results. didnt see it. went immediately to my mum and darius.
and then we saw it together. one by one.
saw a b3 for english. i screamed and started crying already. ahahha.
sounds super drama la.
then maths b3!crying more. then gosh. thank god my brotehr was there. could hide my face filled with tears on his chest.
to anna(brother in tamil)
thank you for everything. if you werent there for me last year, i dont think i would have gotten this. you rock. thanks for picking me up at the lowest point. i love you alot. and for all the effed up curfews i had. well, i realised i needed them.and like what u said which was " at this point of time this might feel like the worst thing that ever happened, but trust me, in time when u look back, it would have been the last year i felt major stupid.
thank god everything is better now.
i'm happy.
7:16 AM
Thursday, February 08, 2007 »
SUPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY FOR AUNTY ROHANI((:
to justin paul tay. sorry for canceling the plans last minute. was not in the mood to meet anyone la. so effing scared for the results.
praying hard.
couldnt sleep the entire night.
hopefully. will be back with good news.
fingers are crossed.
7:08 AM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007 »
bestfriend's sick. she doesnt want to see anyone.
not even me!
well. get well soon.
and i really dont know. k nvm
10:21 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KISHOR(:
okay well. as of late the common questions i've heard from my is family "what do u want to do?' "what do u want to be in future?" and all those kind of future-related questions. and seriously i have no clue.
and so when kishor came along.. ahahha.event management which was what i was pretty keen on before resurfaced again!
and it was very nice of him to offer me come along with him to see a client. so i did. pretty alright.
well and the stupidest thing was. it was HIS BIRTHDAY and i didnt even know abt it la! arwin didnt tell me.
but well. i had to do something. and please bear in mind that yesterday was the first time we met! ahahah.
and so these are the pics..
the ice cream i got. bloody nice. try it! its the ben and jerry's chocolate fudge brownie.
and then we had to have candles right?
whats a birthday without candles?
and that was after he blew the candles. trust me. it was effing hard to light the candles la. firstly the lighter really not very gd. and it was tooo windy!
and i know the candles arent as pretty.
thats happy kishor.
i know i look fugly there. but i had to put this pic coz i
think my cheekbones look so high and nice.
another happy pic of
kishor. hopefully he had lots of fun.
thats us.
and thats how the night ended. ahhaa. it was something really small. and i look effing ugly in photos all the time , i just dont know why.
happy 18th kishor.
9:51 PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007 »
and baldevan's hand is the one with the black and white nail.
and this post is for baldevan. also known as narash.
i dont know what you're thinking. but hey. go out and meet some happy people.(SHANKARI AND ME) solitude is no option for you la!!
you and low-profile cant work. its like oil and water.ahhaha. besides like myself, ahahha you one social butterfly la. you prob going to be threee times more depressed if you resort to this.
LISTEN TO THIS FREN OF YOURS!
and dont worry la. eveyrthing will be fine. you'll get through this.
and dont worry your girlfriend's here for u too.
12:55 AM
Monday, February 05, 2007 »
dinner at suha's was (: together with aunty chitra. uncle logan joined us later on.
suha delivered KFC.
well was suppose to wathc some tamil movie at yishun but i ahd to fetch my younger sister last min. and then wanted to spend time with my mum before i left. so it'd be too late to catch the movie.so we decided on dinner. besides she wanted to treat the family for valentines' day.
aunty chitra cooked sardine curry and it was so very very lovely of her to have packed some for me to bring home. she gave me mango too(: ahaha.
as soon as i got home, my family was having late dinner so i gave it to them and joined them for a while. and y grandmother kept saying "mmm nallayiruku" which means its good. and yes indeed it was.
12:45 AM
heard the good news?
OJW is top1% in his ite. incredible ah. he is super responsible. his graduation is on wednesday. i'm really proud of him.
and even more elated by this msg
"you are the one i want to show my ability to all this while.you are my motivation. thank you. i want to tell you but idont know how to put it. anyway thank you!"
okay i know. and everyone else knows how me and ojw have had our rough patches. and everything horrid. and i'm shock taht after all this, he still doesnt have any bad blood towards me.
12:40 AM
Sunday, February 04, 2007 »
okay was suppose to go pulau ubin with arwin and friends. but i couldnT! my mum la. i dont know why but she just isnt too keen in my going there.
gosh. but i didnt feel like going against her. i dont want to.
so arwin might be alil mad at me!
SORRY.
and to arwin's fren kishor. sorry as well.
my sister got her hse keys to the new hse. its at woodlands! far far away from here.
so the family went there to do some milk boiling tradition. and party there. ahah.
nice hse. took lots of pics.
so will upload them into the blog when its inthe cmp. oh yes. ashraf bought akka a pink digital cam for her birthday and so she's been taking ten million gazillion photos. ahhah. i wonder why.
i love JT's neew song. apparently not so new.i've been living undersome rock for the past two mths. so well. i heard abt it from karthik. and oh yes. its really awesome.
12:33 AM
Saturday, February 03, 2007 »
followed mummy for the sinda reading just now. somehow whenever i read to the kids right? i feel idiotic. ahahha. like i dont know whether they understand what i'm talking abt or whether the book's too easy for them.
but well it was nice talking to them ahaha. the all call me TEACHER! so weird. ahhaha
i had fun. there's this boy called karthik there. very mischivious. everysingle time he goes to the toilet. but he can talk his way out so well.
well enuf abt him. and he loves stickers!
met prakash for dinner at town after that. justin busted us in the end. ahah! but well the eveneing with prakash was fun. and its my first time meeting him. but well. it went smooth.
i dotn know whether he enjoyed the evening la. but well.
after dinner we went to starbucks.
then headed home. for the first meeting, i think we spoke alot. ahhaa. what justin said abt him was true after all. he is indeed a very nice person.
justin is hilarious la. ahhaha. thanks justin.
and its andrea's birthday today.
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA(:
12:27 AM
Friday, February 02, 2007 »
met hydher, nigel,dillon and BF at parkway starbucks.
somehow, hydher gave me motivation yesterday. ahah
i've really not seen someone like him at this age so determined and really passionate abt what he does. it makes me feel like some small fry. blog abt this more later.
it was nice to meet nigel and dillon after so long. and nige thanks for the raspberry ice blended.
12:24 AM
Thursday, February 01, 2007 »
ROAR today was lovely.
i enjoyed myself. was out with
aunty chitra and suha. went to serangoon for the thaipusam.
i cant possilby explain how i feel abt it. but it was just very comfortable. like today prob messed with my brain and emotions alot. esp with you know who.
aunty chitra is really lovely. no kidding.
had dinner with them. well i didnt eat much.
and i went home at like 1145. they sent me home. it was veyr nice of the to.
oh yes. arwin dropped by for a while also. he was working.
and i wore a punjabi suit! incredible isnt it?
you know. with things between me and _____ so different now. its hard.
i'm glad that narash has been here.someone i can relate to. he is going through the same thing.
and BF coz she's been there. and somehow i'm like some alien who has never felt this way.
but well. if its yours, it will be yours(aunty chitra's advice) ahah. i rmb i heard this from kok liang too. through ojw last time. and its true i reckon.
12:14 AM
and baldevan's hand is the one with the black and white nail.
