i'm sure the teachers of broadrick secondary
would have never thought of seeing those faces they saw today ,
coming back to see them on teachers' day.

in other words.
the obedeint ones didnt come.
the trouble makers came.
which is damn sweeet.

oh my god!
it has beeen more than 2 years and even till today
whenever i see ATJTH i cant talk):
haha! i just dont know why.
and i dont think i'll get over it.

and well, was nice seeeing familiar faces.
eugene was there((: haha.
oh, but seeing faces that were tooo familiar
werent very comfortable.
like the ex-boyfriend.

anyway, spent the afternoon at starbucks with yazid and kegan.
and then when kegan and i were waiting for the cab,
i met revathi.
and i felt like banging my head on the wall!!!!

you know what i did?!!
haha. okay let me give a brief explanation.
well, i dont like personally know her.
but somehow, i dont know why
but like when you seee someone from
school outside, you would acknowledge the person right?
but that part is fine.

but u know what i HAD to day?):
i sounded so les. gosh. haha.
afetr talking a while. i said "oh my god, you're so pretty"
roar!!
haha.

enough of that.
sisters's in-laws came over.
and well, i can forseee how busy i'm going to be during the wedding.

Remember, today is tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
haha. get it?

and thats the "paparazzi shot"

and gues who called yesterday? after a super long time?
haha. HAADI aka TELUR. haha
quite a pleasent suprise.

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAADI(:

the chocolate milkshake at the coffee club is really good.
you should try.
its really affordable too.
spent the day at siglap witha yazid, jared and kegan.

then we watched borat at kegan's place,
told yazid about the harry potter movie marathon, kegan and i
were going to have.
and yazid is very excited haha.
he wants to order pizza on moday.

and savrina kaur shahi has beeen calling alot(:

you know, i was sooo happy today.
hah!
my dad bought me sooooo many chocolates la.
its been ages since i was this happy.
but then again, come to think of it, it was only a mth ago,
hah when sav came back.

oh well.
i still badly want an SLK.
and i've been thinking abt driving alot.
like somehow, i jts cant wait to turn 18 and get my license.
but then again,
i dont really know. how long that would take.

and hopefully, my mum becomes super rich sooon.
and like she buys me a really pretty car.

i;ve beeen thinking alot of life and all.
blog abt it soon.

the exams are finally over.
and this means,
the HOLIDAYS are here.

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo,
but what you want is
someone who will take the bus with you
when the limo breaks down.
~Oprah Winfrey

with the right company, even the crappiest place would be perfect.
so bascially it doesnt matter where you hang out, but with who.
is it?
i dont know.

anyway, i damn depressed la.
i was watching pirates of teh carribean about two nights ago.
well, i havent watched it before.
and like it was so interesting but the dvd kept jamming):
gosh, what luck.
neeed to watch it soooon.

and you know the movie the leprechaun?
that too.


Some of us think holding on makes us strong;
but sometimes it is letting go

Honestly what will become of me
I don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We miss everything daydreaming

i know the last thing i should be doing right now is
blogging.
haha. my last paper is this morning. and i should be studying,
burning the midnight oil.
but hey, i needed to blog.

nelly furtado's song pretty awesome.
considering the fact i found out something i didnt want to know today.
i knew it was coming.
but well, lets say, teh song say it right kind of fits the situation i'm in right now?
haha(:

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

if you think you've moved on, think again.
cause, chances are u never did, you never thought of it.
you prob just kept the feelings away.
so how do you even move on?

an example of what i'm trying to say.
like there was this colgate with some fragrance thing
and the normal colgate with those imp ingredients, colgates should have.

so the fragrant one would only mask the bad breath
but the normal colgate kills the germs that caused teh bad breath.

so do you get what i'm trying to say?
haha(:

and the bestfriend left today.
kegan picked me up at 5:25
and we went to the airport.
to meet sav for like ten mins!!!
then headed, to kegan's place for a while
beofre going to sathish's.

the gathering had her place last night went pretty well.
rajiv looked damn good la.
haha

and well, went over to sathish's place today.
was studying accounts from 11-9!! okay.
no kidding. i;m almost brain dead.
but hey, i;m so much happier now.
cause i undersatnd accounts,
all cause of sathish(:

thank you soo much.
thoug he was damn fierce and kept hitting my head!
haha. i did study well.

i've had only two hours of sleep and
so will be turning in sooon,
neeed my rest.

shall blog more tmr.
hopefully.
well, i just hope the paper tmr is something i am able to do well.

all the best everyone.

and to the bestfriend.
hope u reached safely.
i love you.
will miss you.

its confirmed.
i'm going to feel awful on the 16th.

had dinner with kegan and savrina at tampines.
i brought shahira along.
sav was finding a gift for eric.
and i saw two really pretty tops.
neeeeed to get them. haha

anyway, they came over.
my brother/mum was supposed to drive us to mustafa centre.
but we stayed to read savrina's blog's past entries.
and roar! it was so interesting.
and this time, i mean the word, interesting.

like we read, some stuff that were never posted.
and like it was super sweeet. and sweet would be an understatement.
she wrote abt me.
and ALOT about kegan.

and her blog had ten thousand million quotes. haha.
and there's this one i rmbered.
trying to forget the one you love, is like trying to remember someone you never met.

savrina, was so sweeet. well, kegan as well.
they bought shahira 3 packets of candy to cheeer her up.
and chocolates for me.
and sav bought my favourite, chocolate mint ones.
after eights(:

and i we read one of her posts she left has a draft.
just beofre she left sg in 2004.
and it was awfully sweet. she said,
"if there's anyone reading this, and wants to get shaz chocolates, DONT EVER GET HER WHITE CHOCOLATES!"haha.

and roar, before sav left my place at ard 12:45 just now,
she did something, i can never forget!!! haha!
gosh.
sav, no worries.you're forgiven.
and

savrina makes me laugh when she says this,
"shaza, i've come with a message for you." haha. in a squeaky, soft voice.
ahha. thats her imitation of how a fly would sound if it could talk. haha

my mum's one cool lady.
though.yes like two days ago i got alittle angry at her.
and i didnt talk to her when i got home.

well i wasnt angry. just irritated.
lets just say, i dont like anyone altering my plans

but she was so cute la.
she entered my room and..
mum: angry ah? well, i'm going to sleep now. good nights
me: good nights (was on the phone)
mum: no hug?

and roar, after she said that, i felt damn bad la. like guilty.
so i hugged her.
and i didnt want to laugh, cause i was angry right?
but i did):
cause she said something. cant recall what.
i hate it, u know. i hate smiling when like i;m actually really angry inside.
its like i cant help it.
its like, my anger doesnt last!!!!

but anyway. something happened.
and i love my mum for the way she reacted.
she wasnt hysterical or anything.
we had a little talk during her lunch break.

trust me, it wasnt a nice feeling to have my mum
call me when i was sleeping and talking abt it.

well thanks to savrina and a classmate of mine(:
i feel better. hah. well, not like it was something super
bad that would make me feel awful or horrible.
it was just something not pleaseing to the ear.
hahha

well, eveyrthing's cool.
really. nothing bad happened.
even if it did, everything will be fine.

and you know how, everything has a way of coming out right in the end?(:

anyway,
i know someone who is dying.
and thats not a good thing.

loved(:

the day spent at kegan's place.
well, we were studying and then we stopped to talk.
and i'm glad we did.
savrina kaur shahi left at 6!!!!

haha. you know, i know this is wrong.
but i didnt make her do it.
well my younger sister, SHAHIRA, lied for me.
haha. details shall not be disclosed. well here.

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anyway, i didnt mention about the production.
the stage arts production was rocking. like seriosuly.
haha.
being part of the production was (:
though i was super insignificant in the play. roar!
haha.

and it was fun. especially in the make up room.
nadia. made me laugh alot. and i think noone will ever want to put
make up for me ever again. ahha! i couldnt stop fidgetting.

shahira is so, "oh-my-god"ly, well i wanted to say the S-word
but she's my little sister. and it wouldnt be nice.
BUT you know what. hhaha
she thought the play was a real-life thing. and she asked
"is alex and ashley really brothers?"
haha.

and she loves nicky's scene.
i love shahira.
though sometimes, it doesnt seem like it.

but dear sister. you know i do.

meeting someone from ur past can be quite intimidating.
haha.
but hey, it went well.

met the first ever boyfriend. haha
ahsan salim dharani. memories(:

anyway, had lunch with him at parkway.
savrina, kegan and jared joined us.
spent the rest of the afternooon at starbucks.
and i had my caramel frap with extra caramel on the whipped cream(:

the weeks have filled with so many happy stuff.
savrina makes me so happy.
hahahaha!
been going to kegan's place. well, twice only. haha
and that boy has been studyin!!

i love how things ahve been going.
and i'm scared it'll change after the 16th.
with savrina going, its going to be hard to you know...
somehow, i know its going to be quite hard when she leaves this year.

especially cause how,well somehow, i dont know la.
roar! i just know i;m going to m__ her sooo much more.
than how i did the otehr times.
but i'll be fine.hah.
stuff like this happen.
and its about how you handl ur emotions and not let them control you.
and well, why was the telephone created?!!