the past few days, have beeen quite tiring.
been helping with sister's wedding preparations.
and studyign whenever possible.

poor sister of mine, is really stressed.
i wonder how i'd handle my wedding preparations.
ahaha.

oh well.
with so many things coming up, tests,projects and all,
i'm not so sure how i'm going to manage everything.
there's alot of things that has to be done.
but dont worry shaz, lets take one step at a time.
haha.

if not everything is as pretty as it seems at first glance today. Look again tomorrow(:
haha.
If you've got the luxury of time,
just sit still and watch the world go by -
it's busier than you'll ever be or want to be.

sometimes, you're so obsessed with making everything around you
perfect,
making sure its in the right place.
but really, what YOU feel is right or perfect,
is it really?

or maybe you should just let things be the way they are,
and not intervene.
but just appreciate it?
instead of changing it to how you want it to be,
and just accept it?

my dearest granddad, passed away recently.
19th november at 0121.
though the past few days havent beeen easy,
i'll get through it.

may his soul rest in peace.
he will always be rememebered dearly.

when I'm so tired baby
the things you say, you're driving me away.

thoughts.lots of thoughts.
i spent my time, alone at ecp jst now.
just wht i neeeded.
well, me, alone at ecp?
something is OBVIOUSLY wrong.
haha.

oh well, it happens.
i will get through this.
i just dont know how.
its really hard to hold everything inside.
i dont wan to either.
oh well. i dont know.

i really dont know what to do.
what to do?
i have this huge urge to just run away from everything.
and let everything solve on its own.
and leaving everything seeem like the most cowardly thing to do,
but i really dont know what else to do u know.

somehow, the only thing i do know, is leave everything.

i'm very lost.sadly.
but obviously it would never seem like that when i'm
around you all.
i'l get through it,obviously.
this is just one of the many minor setbacks.

what i am more concerned of is the other/s.
i'm quite a mess. really.
i neeed to straighten out alot of things.
i havent.
but really, i could do that now either.

i dont know la.
and well, some people will never change.
continuous disappointments.


Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
Tell me is this fair?

(:what to do?

Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
Is this how we say goodbye?


i really think that there is no other way.
i'm sorry.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay.

but then again.
I DONT KNOW):
what an emo entry this has beeeen.
hah.

leave,dontleave,leave,dontleave,leave,dontleave.

just go with the flow?
as always.
and let this vicious cycle continue.

we'll seee what happens.
should we?

sorry sav.
beeen having alot of thoughts on my mind.
havent had time to update, nor chat with you online. i am fine.
will be.

the evening with kishor was lovely.
we has dinner at some north indian restaurant.
the food was good.
the place, layout, evyrthing was impressive.
and the live band made everything even more lovely.

and we had a veyr lovely conversation over dinner too.
hahha.
everyone must go there one day. sooon ok?(:
i bring you guys there.
hopefuly.

its great to have a friend like you, come back.

i went to mustafa centre(:
i have beeen so awfully busy.
and tired.
alot of catching up wiht school work.

shahira's birthday is tmr.
happy birthday dearest sister.
i love you.

some of the hari raya peeek-tures(:

DRAMA NIGHT came(:
and left.

everything went well.
everyone did well.
GREAT JOB EVERYONE(:

the seniors' performance was super inspiring as usual.
the way the acted.
their performance was very interactive.
they interacted with the audience during the play.
and their acting skils, superb.
aisha rocked.

vithya, luqman and pravind came.and my lovely family too.
haha. pravind damn mean la.
just because i am the helpful person that i am,
i was helping out ALOT with the props,
but he kept calling me stage crew):
ahha.


to rabia and sara(:
thank you for the sweet treats.
haha.

neerah sure did have fun applying make up for me!
haha. i couldnt stop talking. how entertaining.
aha. loved.
i really dont really like make up):
however, i think like if its make up for the eyes part only.
i think very lovely!

and so i've got quite abit of school work to catch up on.
havent attended class since wednesday.

to my group members,
rabia, sara, fadlul, fransisca, christina jessica rose, rabia jr, yatasha, sarah and amin.and everyone in stage arts drama and make up artists,
I LOVE YOU ALL.
haha.

to yatasha,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

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