went to check out the new house in J.B. a small apartment(i thin that's what u call it). cosy one. however lots more need to be done. mum wants to paint the house another colour. the furnitures are already there. my bed rocks.! so much much better then the one now in my room!!
however. my mum's room is like the best. damn! well. she paid forthe house. so i cant say anythin. ahahha.

woke up damn early. come to think of it. i think its the earliest time i have woken up in the past three mth(eversince O's ended). was at the house till lunch time. then left for shopping for provisions n headed home to singapore.

my sister has the hot pink motorola RAZR V3!!! her blady fiance got it for her b'day! argh! its damn nice! =( there's this casing too. that juz looks perfect with the hp.
she left for sibu this morning at 4!! kept disturbing me! gosh but now. i miss her. feelin so damn lonely at home. ahah. actually. i m lying. aint even close to lonely. YET!

STARBUCKS

talkin. bitchin. gossiping. laughin. laughin really loudly(feeza). drinkin. eating. commenting. lying. smiling. sitting. standing.
feeza, nisa and i did all of that! yesterday. at starbucks. we actually was suppose to meet deepan,kairi n azmir for the party. for some reasons we decided to stay at starbucks. was so much fun. our stomachs hurt badly from laughin too much and hard.


considering the fact that the day(yest) started off so very fuckin badly. the ending was so fuckin awesome. esp after talkin to you. =)

so well. went to schoool today to accompany manshya. then went for lunch at banquet pp. she ate. i din. aahah. stayed outside my house. coz din have the damn key coz the maid went out! waited for like 1h 15 mins. felt like cryin. was so frustrated. juz had to go joggin! well. not like jog through out. jog. then walk! then jog then walk. n so on. felt better. was damn cold. was abt to rain n all.

ahaha! GOH YAN's gonna be ahhah.. feelin somethin. ahha. when she reads this. aahha. i love her.


mysteriousX:
wads bothering you?
mysteriousX:
you dont have to go jogging..can always confide in me.


=). a smile for GOH YAN LING. ahha

CARA LOH, I MISS YOU! i want to go to your hse with the gang and have lotsa fun. dancing. n eating. n laughin! I LOVE YOU!! gd to know u're comin back in APRIL!!.

SAVRINA, MISSING U MORE!!!(haven seen u like since august!) come back quick.

MAPLE.. take care!


NISA! can i see your face? i love u. ahha


FEEZA... starbucks?


STAR. have lotsa fun! ahah. wait i pray u have fun. ahha. take care.

I BOUGHT A LIME GREEN SKIRT! its damn nice! ha ha ha!

anyhow's! jared! that blady bitch!ahah! forget it. shant talk abt it.

so like went for damn damn late lunch with NISA, SAMIRAH and GOH YAN LING at long john's silver! damn i so badly badly wanted to go to that DI TANJONG KATONG CAFE RESTAURANT. to eat the hor fun. =(


so well. gosh damn embarrassing!! my elder sis like shouted at me and all at paya lebar. gosh. ahah. really damn f-ing embarrassed. then i dont know how to react and all. then for that, another scolding. she was like"dont give me that face! so pityful and all"! and i was like. gosh double embarrassment! argh!!!!!!!! everyone heard!!
but well after ten mins like that everythin was cool. aahhah! she even bought me a skirt. so like we spent $124 and sumthin cents after discount and all. and i only got one skirt out of all the clothes she bought for herself! ahah. but well i love the skirt! ahah!


damn nisa talked to naufal again! argh bitch! ahah.


MAPLE. gd to know you're feelin better. I LOVE YOU!


and NISA dont think i forgot that "GRAWW" ahahah. trust me. it will always be on my mind eso when we enter parkway by the watsons entrance! ahahha or when i see a dog! ahah.
gosh NISA it was damn embarrassing!! ahah.

MAPLE

get well soon. i love you. recover quick. paris n beyonce will visit u tmr. smile. take care of urself. n how come u sitll look so pretty in the hospital? ahha. i love you!! harresh loves u too! nisa loves you also. yan ling loves alot more. beyonce love you too! ahhah.

today! hmm.. started with. period.cramps.pain.tears.
ended with NISA.FEEZA.chocolate ice-cream and waffles.laughter.m&ms


so well. went to see MAPLE darlin at NUH! took a really really long bus ride with chan nurul nisa on 197. hope the flowers made her smile!! and hope the CLEO magazine keeps her company! so well. had indian rojak at NUH! then took a long bus ride back to parkway for GELARE!! met iskhandar and imran!! come to think of it. both of the guys were from fahimah's past. ahah!

anyhow's NISA got a call from NAUFAL!! arhHH!!! damn. ahaha. fuckin bitch flirt all the fuckin way. argh to make it worse she embarrassed me.ass! ahahha

so well ELTON!ahha. funny. guy. ahahah

so well. i had eight packets of m&ms today! coz of the offer at 7-11. ahah. i kept buying them ahah. n NISA din stop me!

so well. hmm.. was damn happy to see feeza when i was at nisa's block! ahah. trust me. i was so happy. ahah.

MAPLE told me sumthin. i confirmed it with elton. and so.now i've started thinking alot! ahha.

HARRESH...
sorry was unable to come down to meet u juz now=(. meet u on thurs or sumthin. before u leave aite?
yeah! gonna meet jared tmr. i want hor fun!

7:16 AM

Monday, January 23, 2006 »

we din talk yest=(

10:42 PM

FEEZA... my sexaye DRAGON BOAT PARTNER 2005!

7:30 AM

FEEZA rocks!! so does NISA. and wait SAMIRAh thanks for saving YAN LING and myself! YAZID=) !

nisa wore a skirt!! ahah! nothing big. dunno why juz had to write abt it! god, SAVRINA looks damn gd! her hair rocks! so pretty!

well so, now i m really pissed! so much for the apology at prom!!!! hah! fucker! hah! fuckin pissed! go n die! i hate you, loser! hah! LIAR! stupid LIAR! i dont think u ahve the right to judge me now coz u totally dont know me NOW! we haven spoken for ages. so save ure DUMB stupid comments to urself! ass! argh!


okay! yeah!! feeza wants to go sentosa on thurs! but i already have plans =( . but still i wanna go.
okay anyhow's here's what nisa told me. an extract from her fren. indication of moving on.


"the true mark as to moving on is when you can think back and wonder how on earth that came together, when you can think back without missing or wanting."

so have i?? *smiles*

6:40 AM

Sunday, January 22, 2006 »

6:49 AM

Friday, January 20, 2006 »

damn din go for the interview at secret recipe. prob go tomorrow.
RILLA! thanks alot for tellin me abt it. i pray i get the job. anyhows.

i need a chocolate cake right now.

GOH YAN, YAZID n I had a blast at pacific coffee at pp. ahah.
dinner sucked. went to banquet. no wait! first we went to tampines LONG JOHN"S but yazid felt like eating rice. so we went all the way to PARKWAY in stead. bloody long bus ride. so esp when u're hungry it seems to be longer.

so like now i know not to trust samirah's taste in food! like she asked me to try the hot plate seafood noodle. saying it was damn nice and all. gosh seeing the pic of the dish it seemed quite nice too.
but then when i got it! YUCKS!!!!!!! no taste. damn hai. =(
and her food tasted so nice. ahah

well so today YAZID,GOH YAN n i did somethin really bad.! ahhah shhh!!! big secret! ahhaha

6:51 AM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006 »

if EMINEM could RE-MARRY KIM his EX-WIFE, anythin else is possible!




i never wanted to be just the other woman. i wanted to be THAT woman.

6:27 AM

Monday, January 16, 2006 »

fuckin ulcers makin me feel really irritated. gosh.

MAPLE & AMY I m do damn SORRY!
hope everythin went well.

someone called me a slut! =( ahah.*hurt* ahah.. YA RITE.

and so i have a HUGE intuition that anonymous is SAMIRAH SEHABDEEN!!!!!!! ahahahhaha.. i knew so anyone. i shall pretend i dont know its u.
so anyway someone called me a slut. ahaha. so exactly what is a slut? i asked ahmad to define the word "slut" for me. and u know what?
he gave me this totally cool website. ahha.

www.dictionary.com

fuckin cool. la. so anyways when i checked it out. n so the meaning was

A woman considered sexually promiscuous(casual sexual relations frequently with different partners).
A woman prostitute.

and so i figured. the person who calls ITSELF anonymous has got a really poor vocabularly. i mean reallypoor. or wait its either that OR the person juz doesnt know me. OR prob has a huge grudge against me. OR they can be many other possible reasons.
so seriously i totally fuck care. besides. everyone has a DIFFERENT points of views n it aint gd to force ure views on them.
but well prob i am. alrite.
so enough bout that. SAMIRAh sorry for scolding u ahahahha!!

so then hope to see u tmr. love.

NISA where d F are YOU?!

4:34 AM

Sunday, January 15, 2006 »

so on FRIDAY the 13th i fell sick. woke up having a fever. so din go for the training for the job. GOH YAN LING and SAMIRAH din go for it too. they came over to my house with taufiq. they were pretty sick as well. then yazid joined us. very SWEET of them to VISIT me!
so like stayed the whole day at home. was suppose to go over to mary ann's hse to help out with the ben's b'day. SADLY i din go. then like the plans the following day was all cancelled also!
was to meet danial and mary ann at hougang mrt at 1045!! but hey i was still damn sick then din have the energy to get up n meet them.
damn damn sad. =( anyhow's

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! ....

so well, meeting up with harresh got cancelled to. coincidentally he was sick too. =(
well we're recovering!
so then. tommorow i will be meetin MAPLE!! and her fren amy. yan samirah n yazid will be joining us. missin her.

NISA i love the mrs.field sticky chewy chocolate cookie u bought for me n yazid that day at town. ahah. *hint* =)

so well.. was talkin to HARRReshahaha. till 4 28am yest. ahah
was fun.

damn the two days that i've been sick it hasnt rained!!! damn!
so well. gonna go out to 77th street now to get skirts... with my mom!

bye!

12:26 AM

Thursday, January 12, 2006 »

n so. i got the JACKET. its damn NICE. its look more purple actually. however its like totally nice.
HARRESH! sorry. last minute had to go for the interview. SATURDAY aite? well so then finally got a job. must secure myself financially before the gettin my really dissapointing O level results. however hoping for good results. u know, aint gonna look down on my capability however juz preparing myself for the WORST.

heard that the O'level results were comin out on the 15 or 16 of feb. DIE!

so yest i said DONT BE FOOLED BY CHARMING SALES PEOPLE! however today i TAKE MY WORDS BACK. totally.
please be mesmorized by charmin n really friendly salespeople. PLEASE. ahaha.

so well. GOH YAN LING. I LOVE YOU! ahah. " open leg nicer"??????? ahahah gosh . they really thot we were together!!!! ahah.

MAPLE... see u on MONDAY!!!!!!!!!

SAVRINA! so cool. u went to the beach with eric n ur FAMILY???! ahah rock on. cool.

NISA... cute lil gnome. ahhaha

bye.

5:27 AM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006 »

alrite. i m so IN LOVE with this jacket in E-BASE. it aint a jacket actaulyl. its a.. hmm.. nisa calls it crop? or somethin like that. aint so sure of the spellin. well. so in love with it. damn nice. gonna get. will get it by tmr. definitely. cant stop thinking abt it.
so like NISA n I dod our hair together today. was damn fun. SHE looks really chinese. and so damn PRETTY as well.
gosh so we like had lunch at my favourite place LONG JOHN'S SILVERS!!!
finally. for once in ages my bestie n i could sit at starbucks.. just the TWO OF US, talkin n chilling over HOT CHOCOLATE and the chocolatey muffin!
and i totally love comin home coz of my ROOM. its freakin cosy N cool now. my aunt's maid has been stayin with us and will be for the next few days.. coz of her the hse is so MAGICALLY clean!
i miss FAHIMAH SO VERY MUCH. hai. feelin sad now. wanna spend time with her soon. gosh i really miss her. my heart feels so very heavy. esp when i think of her. was tellin nisa how much i juz miss her! hai. she's damn busy i guess. i will/shall/ MUST cat5ch up with her! FEEZA as well. i know samirah n i are like always sayin. "feeza we wanna go out soon" but we like never. ahah. gosh FAHIMAH!!!!!!!!!
*sob sob*
anyhow's JUST now. NISA n i went to some shop near 77 street at TM to LOOK at earrings. FOR ME. n so. JUS LOOK> but well this charming n persistant guy who works at the shop was like helpin me out on earrings to choose for the top of my ear. then he suggested to ring ones. so like. it wouldnt be nice NOT to buy n all n BESIDES he seems to know quite alot on such stuff.. but THEN i was so wrong!!!!!!!!!! i got the earrings. looked damn nice. but when i was gonna use it. damn! my ear started BLEEDING. however that is normal. the irritating part was that it din fit coz it was a lil short. argh! but it was damn nice. BLACK colour!
in my heart i was like" blady hell, that guy cheat my money!!!!!" but well he kept waving n smiling. n coz of that i juz cudt get angry with him.
n i learnt my lesson. DONT EVER BE FOOLED MY CHARMIN SALES PEOPLE!!

i got for GOH YAN LING.. really PRETTY CHEESY heart cakes. damn pretty! hope she likes them ahah.

n so gonna meet SHANKARI tmr. yeah! cant wait.

5:10 AM

Monday, January 09, 2006 »

been like fetchin younger sis from school EVERYSINGLE DAY except saturday n sunday n tmr. oh gosh. how more can i LOVE my life. ahahah. juz been great. spending time with her on the bus. she sleeps through out the whole journey. poor girl. so tired.
anyhows. been addicted to M&Ms the blue wrapper ones. i think its called crispy or somethin like that. so well.
overwhelmed by the sweetness, powerful words. gosh. feelin so happy. somehow. flyin in happy thoughts. n then. i try to stabilise my happiness. but i still cant help it. i cant stop smiling. prob its juz me.
adopting a new love for books. gonna broaden my horizons. so like. i have to meet some people. but fetchin my sis has been a hindrance somehow. but well. i have got to be responsible.
BASHEER, SHANKARI, MAPLE and HARRESH!!.. i shall meet u all soon. i hope.
will try my best. sorry if i keep changing the dates of our meeting. esp-basheer.
and sorry for continiously not calling back esp after everytime i say i will call back-JUSTIN.
sorry. juz been busy.

6:45 AM

Friday, January 06, 2006 »

so MAPLE u're in MALACCA?!?!!!
goin to meet YAN soon to go for the rugby match. however we got no freakin idea on how to go there? but well we shall find a way. MAPLE was suppose to follow us. but its okay. ahahha. coz now she's ELSEWHERE!! ahahha.. anywayz have fun maple. ahah.

AHMAD..... we are comin.....

7:01 PM

was very nice of ahmad's dad to drop YAN,FARHAN and MYSELF back home. din wanna trouble him though but like if we kept sayin NO and he kept INSISTING then he'd prob get pissed. ahah. so YAN n I decided to shut up n let AHMAD's DAD send us home.

so like today was to meet nisa at city hall at 145pm then head straight to wing tai for the job interview. got a call from JARED PETER DE MELLO! he came along. PARIS and BEYONCE was there too. so we all after the job thin PARIS left for dental and this is the part......

SAMIRAH!!!!!!!!!!
she slapped me twice. as in really slap. damn hard. she is freakin strong. my poor highly fragile face! and wait.. not only that! you see we wanted to go town. but bein really gd frenz (JARED,NISA and I) we waited for the bus to go PARKWAY coz samirah wanted to. N THEN................. when bus 14 came she took the bus and went HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!
forgive n forget. what to do. weakness of having a strong heart! always forgivin.

well so JARED, NISA n I were at starbucks. sitting n talkin. then ONG JIN WEN came. talked awhile. then. was waittin for yan to come so we could head for AHMAD's.. then like

MY MOM called.. she was like "so where u want to pierce ear? parkway or tampines?" wow. i was like. " what? serious. ahah. " then she came. when to pierece my forth ear-hole n my mum her second. well. kinda hurts now.
and for the second time when i piereced GOH YAN LING was there to hold my hand!

so we bought three really really pretty cakes for AHMAD and his parents. one mango cake for AHMAD and two heart-shaped cakes for his parents. n i still dont get why nisa insisted on buyin two cakes for the parents.. i so wanted one cake for the two parents coz like "how can u seperate them." besides its sweeter to share one cake. anyhow we bought two cakes in the end!

so like. i will be goin for the RUGBY match tmr then sending AHMAD off. then got a date with my brother. gonna accompany him to his NS SQUAD'S BBQ.however i may not be goin. too shy. ahah. well on confernce now with NISA,RAJIV,AHMAD.

to ahmad:my new found fren.. have a safe trip. enjoy your stay. come back safely. and hope u like the cake.

8:38 AM

Thursday, January 05, 2006 »

*BIG SUGAR COATED SUPRISE*
- sweeet!
perfect. nice. n really really sweet...
NO regrets. =p thanks for entering my life.... MY CHOCOLATE CANDY!


so well, met manshya at eunos interchange. went to sentosa together with yan ling. bumped into fadzil and elias. as in like happen to meet them.
SAMIRAH came late!!! with sharifah.. sharifah damn vogue! so cool. hairstyle very nice. really short then she style. wow! nice . unique. juz total coolness.
well. then went for dinner at harbourfront macs.

gosh feelin so fucked up with certain people. as in those low-life scumbags who think they rock. gosh.

ahmad: he wants to be in everyones good books

well ahmad's so rite. well unfortunately that guy aint no where near our "good books"

YAN LING was damn funny in the bus.. ahah. cant wait. gonna find job with nisa tomorrow! justin will be comin too. wait actually i think i can wait.

I LOVE MY MUM....
so damn happy! she is gonna pierce a second earhole!! WITH ME! ahah. freakin cool. had to beg her n all. but like she said yes! she would. prob tmr or somethin. cant wait. ahah. damn excited! makin her pierce the top of her ear there. my mum is like my fren. she HATES the idea somehow but like she cant say NO to me .. ahah.. love her. only thin is that she is kinda scared. but well I M HERE. so NO FEAR! juz hope she wont change her mind. ahah. hopefully.. n besides noone is gonna see it coz of her tudung n all. its only for me n her to admire it!

TOTAL COOLNESS!!!

10:14 AM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006 »

juz the girls....
all of us!!!...

12:28 PM

i m a confused kid. wait. i mean girl. no wait. person sounds better. so i m a confused person. only in the sense that i dont know how to plan my activities for the day n all.
its forever like this .. havin too many plans. dont know who to go out with. where to go. but well in the end everythin falls in place well. thankfully.

okay wait so well. went to bugis with sis so buy morre tops. esp after fallin in love with the shirt nisa gave/borrowed/lend me. damn f nice
and u know what?! i got three shirts for $12!!! damn cheap but damn damn fuckin nice too. two of it cost $5 each then the other one $2!
actually not that great juz shirts.
so well. heard sumthin from beyonce. abt some old fren. and abt me. fuck care.

so well. saw a really cool girl juz now. damn punk. like to the EXTREME. damn cool. she like had black lipstick(so gothic-ly cool) then like had piercing and all all.. her shirt must definitely been damn heavy coz had alot of things on it.. some silver stuff. nt too sure what. then like had some tie.the tie juz made it extra wow. then like juz damn extreme . couldnt get my eyes off her (sounds so lesbo). well seriously juz damn WOW! really cool..her hair-do power. unique. esp for a girl!
then whatever YAN LING and SAMIRAH told me like really hit me.
"punk aint juz a cool concept. those who dress punk have lotsa guts and confidence(esp with all the piercing and dressinand hair-do) that is what that makes them cool"

well.. tomorrow's brother's passing out parade.

damn varsha leaving to aust tmr. she will be missed. love u.
so like all my close buddies are leavin overseas.
when will it be my turn?!
soon i hope..
or wait mayb never.

11:26 AM

Monday, January 02, 2006 »

2 jan 2005..
i went out with MAPLE, ELTON,HARRESH and NISA!!
BEYONCE AND PARIS was the ones who were suppose to follow me! ahah.. well they had their reasons for not comin.
so well. was suppose to meet at twelve at lido. woke up late coz of the damn clock. met them ard two. watched a movie about SHEEPS!! ahah.. THE DARK... had fun. MAPLE had to go for tennis, harresh had to go off so did elton. so after ovies we went seperate ways n all.
NISA and i met MARY ANN at suntec coz NISA was gonna take her pay n all.
then suppose to meet dan at pp. but he went for dinner. then met up with DILLON and NISA at pacific coffee after dinner. talked to HAIKEL. he knows atticus as in atiqa(not sure of the spellin)
so well had fun today!!!
MAPLE loves pigeons! ahah.
wait. the way thise pigeons attacked that old man was damn hilarious!
my day was rockin..

11:04 AM