YUCKS.. my colour aint yellow for nuts! stupid stupid quiz. okay well. maybe it was juz me. i din answer like totally honestly or somethin. but fck it.

I M SOOO CRAVING for BUTTERSCOTCH COOKIES at FAMOUS AMOS. i need gelare. so so bad. thank god tomorrow's a tuesday =) starbucks... =)
i basically need anythin sweet rite now! i m a sucker for anythin sweeeettt!!

so if u're close to me n all, n loved by me, u'd know why... coz u're sweet =)
savrina, nisa, feeza, rilla, yazid, samirah, manshya, cara,winda, goh yan ling, maple, ahmad kamil, amy, mary ann, harresh,elton are all so lucky...=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARA LOH...

i love u! may all ur wishes come true. cant wait to see ur pretty pretty face. you take care. see u next week =)


went to see the finals for the rugby match coz of MAPLE TAN! =)

it was at choa chu kang! the new police academy. i thought of juz dropping by n then goin off after awhile. but then i din know how to get home la. it was in the middle of no where! an isolatedplace. so decided to wait for maple.

the match was ACS I against st andrews.
saint andrews won. pretty nice game. interesting.

met harresh and elton some other people.

well. i m so irritated. got this very irrtating feeling. yucks. i guess this is the end.

anyhows.. i was walkin with nithin to bedok stadium in the morning n i m pretty impress with the boy. ahahah. tehre was this freky lady came to us n ask for 50 cents. i din have. then nithin was lik"i have one dollar. is that okay?" ahahahha.. but then we realised that,that bloody lady kept askin people for money. but nithin was so cool abt it even after knowing that. ahahah.


dragon boat tmr... =)

got a suprising call from HAADI today.

well i din go to school. was at home studying for the upcoming tests. went to study at ecp mac for a while coz was goin to meet haadi as well.
met jared n cheryl at marine parade polyclinic. and so as it was tuesday.... we all headed to GELARE. =) had a fun time. jared n cheryl are damn funny together. i use to think cheryl was scary.

HAADI. SORRY. i think i like wasted ur whole day. will make up for it.

so well. got lots to study. been wasting too much time. gosh. bad bad.

i miss. miss. miss.RILLA.

hey hey! juz got back from the rugby match with maple and valarie and harresh and elton n brian n some other people. had lunch at cine with maple then cabbed down to see the match. gosh. harresh is really good. impressed. ahah. was fun.

saniah n i skipped s.s today. ahah. was in the toilet. it was the last two periods and there was nothin much to do anyway. school assembly was really nice. ahah. there was a performance from the indian, malay n chinese dance grp. i shant comment further. well it was nice. somehow. n wait the choir was juz awesome la. ahhaha. ahahha. =)

k then. after the match had dinner at mac's at some part of singapore a have never been to with the acs barker ruggers, maple n valerie.
oh yes. n i forgot to mention that ACS BARKER WON! ahah. rocks. the game quite nice la. harresh's score was wow! ahhaha. this was the semifinals by the way. 3rd n fourth position. so they got 3RD! happy.
ELTON loh. take care.

so well. got to rush with my maths hmwk now. ROAR!
oh yes. met yanling for a while as well. before heading to town. miss her. that girl bloody busy. actually we all are. ahaha. cant wait for the special thin comin soon. cant wait to have fun. yeah.

=)

the conversation i had with savrina on the phone the other day was great. glad she called. we talked for so long like as though it was some local call that i went late for work! but well it was worth it anyway.
i love u. i miss u. bestfren. hey take care k? i guess u know what u're doing. but well. juz do take care. really!!!! dont want u hurt or anythin at the end of the day love. n as for me. i will be fine. ahah. i m fine love. totally. ahahha. call me soon..

i pierced another earhole yest with my mum. suprisingly it din hurt. but well. basically i have five earholes on my right ear. got to get earrings. gosh.
my mum pierced as well.

yest was such a fucked up day. the only thing i did the whole entire bloody day was pierce my ear. n after that NOTHIN! waited for four damn hours. doin nothin. gosh. fucky fucked up day.

there's a new guy workin at mrs.fields. hafiz. the only guy. nice person.

i hate giving flyers out! wait. okay maybe i m okay with it.
well, u see. i have to give out these coupons which says "ONE FREE COOKIE NIBBLER". i mean which part of the word free dont ppl get? its free. juz take it!but well. of coz there are the nice ppl as well. but then again. it can get quite depressing when i have a whole huge stack to give out. goona give the coupons out again today. ROAR!

i think today is my last day. n the thing is, i din even have to say anythin. coz the other two mrs.fields outlets are gonna close for awhile for upgrading. terefore tehre wil be more staff then required at paragon. thus, part-timers wont have to work till further notice. yeah! ahhaha.

DRAGON BOAT... here i come..

8:34 AM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006 »

so well. i woke up at six. got ready. left the house as usual at six forty-five. but din go school! but why?! ahahha

gosh. coz. was stuck in some fuckin jam. so bascially i was late by like two mins. so decided to go home. coz been late too many time. i mean like it has never actually bothered me before. comin late as always been part of my sec school life. however as a repeat student, comin late is like some huge taboo. then like. i juz want to avoid the talk anyone whould have with me abt me comin back to school n not behaving properly coz the wound is still not healed. n like when i think of it, it gets to me.. roar! ahahhaha

anyhow's yest was juz fun fun fun. ahahha. gosh i am amaze by how my classmate alicia gets excited over simple things. she is fuckin straight-forward la. juz have a conversation with her.. boy, u prob die laughing. she is so much fun. told me alot of pretty weird stuff. ahahha.

she cut some girls hair in primary 1 la! ahahhah.. i kinda love my class. though its only been two weeks? or so. they damn fun. saniah's bitching sessions are interesting. esther, is hardworkin n all. so she always reminds us to stop talkin n do work. n like the other girls are juz all oh-so-frenly. ahah. n alicia smokes. =p ahah. the guys can get really funny during lesson. n my form teacher is cool. seriously ahah. 5N1 has this real positive vibe. ahahha. a very friendly environment. howvever like i said. there always one "kevin mong" in very class ahahah. so bascially there is one there too. ahahha

so well it was WINDA ROSITA's brithday yesterday. had like lots of plans for her. then last min blady hell she had to go to the subordinate courts for some excursion. so well. nis, feez, rilla n i were waiting n starbucks for her. till five.
well. the cake we got for her was awesomely awesomely lovely. the cakes at jack's place are all so nice!!!!!!! winda ate like three quarteres of that huge cake la! ahahha. wind had to rush coz she had to go for soccer. found out winda can be pretty straight -forward as well. she and alicia can be good frenz. ahaha.
then went for work ard six with rilla. saw hazwani! then wind met me at my work place. she was with tiffany n ben. tiffany is pretty.! nice to see ben.

i managed to spend time with rilla. like finally. but we were pretty tired n all.

if only i had gone to school. prob be laughing the whole way with alicia la!

yazid was sick yest. take care. hope u feelin better.

meeting my cranky hot chick now.going off for work after that.
i hope i can finally have the courage to say "i want to quit" ahahha.

9:08 PM

Monday, April 03, 2006 »

today was great. to think i didint want to come to school!
well i so didnt want to la. coz i had like two blady tests and like a whole lot of incomplete homework. after work, i was blady tired to complete them. n then i thot of nigel. like cant be so bad n all. must come school n accompany him.
N then RILLA told me somethin that totaly made me come to school la. she was like "you cant run away from hmwk and tests. so might as well settle them" n then it occured to me that what she said was so true. aahha.
so i went to school. still pretty hesistant... but the two tests were postphoned la! how lucky can i get. n i did complete my hmwk on time. so well .. today went well. n then. met HOT CHICK n SEXAYE at pp. eating at burger king. shoppin for feez stuff!ahah
had a great time. coz like i spent the evening with my bestie nisa. wish. so badly wish. savrina could be tehre. roar!
anyhow's so well. was studyin at coffee bean.. when i met my MY BEST PARTNER... DILLON LEE... gosh. i miss him! he stayed for some time. catching up n all...
he made d day better juz now on msn... ahahha...
he said he missed his partner(me) alot! how sweet. super sweet. ahaha!

anyhow's well. glad to know that my friendship with hot chick has progressed! ahahah. happy. the past few weeks... it was obvious we werent as close. needed a lil space( for her). we all do at times. gosh i love her. thanks for everythin.

SAVRINA KAUR SHAHI! there is this blady blady blady long letter.. i am gonna send to you. blueberry sunflower bestie. i miss u. abt four more mths.. to ssee ur oh-so-pretty face. again! got lots to tell in that letter.
I LOVE U! as in alot. come home quick.

amy. smile. dont worry. everythin will be fine soon.

FEEZA... FEEZA... ahahha. dorothy perkins.

MANSHYA, CARA... thanks. love u bth. CARA come home quick!

6:41 AM

Saturday, April 01, 2006 »

BACK TO BROADRICK SECONDARY...

gosh. a bitter pill to swallow. ahaha. but well. its much better now. like i was so not ready for school. had to buy black hair spray at like 2 in d morning the day before school!! sprayed hair every morning before school. got damn annoying.after a few days i din care. no one caught me. besides it was so obvious my hair was highlighted but the teachers din say anythin. till.. one morning.. after two weeks MR TAN!!. ahahah. well. mr tan's cool. so well i dyed it back already.. gd student. =)

i think yazid's been really sweet. coz i have been late for school like four times in d first week. he calls me every morning to wake me up! so that i wont go late. ahah. rocks. love him. n he really take cares of his frenz.

GOH YAN LING.. thanks for ur school shoes. ahahah. two pairs! i love u. your msg that day made me smile. so sweet. i wont go school late. well i will try. but seriously i cant help it!

somehow, though i was pretty reluctant in the beginning to come back to school, now, come to think of it, it was a good move. but its still a real bitter pill to swallow. like, i m sure i would never choose to wake up at seven to study n i prob like waste time n prolong the times in which i plan to study n all. ahah

well, i knew i was gonna re-take. n during o'levels i totally gave up half way. coz in my mind there was always such thin as retakin. at that point of time i thought everythin would be alrite even if i retook o'levels n all. but i guess its diff now. coz like now,being in this situation i realise that so many other factors are involved. its emotionally heartbreakin, confidence stealin n juz basically a totally crappy feelin that cant be described. but nothin to do with the fact that i am disapointed in my results, coz i really din study.. so basically there is nothin to be disappointed abt. ahhahaa
but like, i mean i could appeal n get into RP. but i guess i should get a proper o'level cert n move on coz like o'levels is really the benchmark. i never felt that way.. till my sis knocked sense into my brain.

i m so fickle that i din know where to go or what to do. till people intervened into the situation.

well i'm glad i met ameer two days before school started. n leonard a week before school started.
whatever he said really got to me. it was then when i realised "i am goin back to broadrick secondary"
he also said the path ahead wont be easy. people would see u in a diff light. n every two days u are sure to feel shitty. ahah'
guess what? its kind of true. ahha. been on a emotional roller coaster ride. i guess prob coz the memories of school. n my mum not allowing me to go for DB. but well ahahah. i m still goin now. its like. better to have finish it once n. for all. but well its eight months more. so well. its a short period of time. I HOPE. ahahha

so anyhow's its great to know that the school's pretty welcoming. n my class he really nice people in it. n there's one "Kevin mong".. i guess there is one "kevin mong" in every class. ahahha. n thousand dollar boy...ahaha.. very fun


the homework.assembly.the comin to school late,teachers. mr J, recess, the p.e. lessons. the rules. the uniform. the copying homwork.the talkin in class. the pissing mdm sim off. the 2.4km. the tie. the F&N practicals.the detention. the blady reading periods. all the lessons. the"waiting for the recess bell". the "waiting for the 1:40 bell". the "i wish mr J finishes his speech quick". the cliiques. the different racial groups.the skipping class n stayin in the toilet. the dragon boat. the "i m late of dragon boat". the physical trainings. OAC. the secret sweetheart.the ex boyfrenz.sec 2 camp.the bitches. the sluts. ahahah.the gatherings at cara loh's house. eating before DB at her house. the sport days. the mother tongue lessons/gossip times.valentines days with savrina,manshya n disha.the fights. the OAC camps. the dragon boat competition. the swimming. that particular swimming incident with yan ling n cara. the star jumps in the swimming pool. the waiting for samirah outside her house door. playing with small kids at tanjong rhu after DB. the "after DB dinner at KALLANG!". the soccer match. the heartbreak. the other heartbreak. prom. the parties after prom.

will be missed.all so close to my heart. and so much more.
school juz aint the same. but well. except fo the uniform n rules n mr J's speech.. the rest can never be the same. ahahha

i love my bestfrenz(SAVRINA n NISA), oac darlins (YAN LING, CARA, SAMIRAH, LYNETTE, JELISA, TONIA, PEI SHAN), dragon boat partner (FEEZAHMAD), MANSHYA.. YAZID.. DILLON school was fun when u were all around. ahahha.


AMY N MAPLE!!!! i hope things get better for the two of u. dinner with the two of u that day was great. i cant afford to lose either one of u. =) love u both

RILLA.. get some time off ur so very busy life for me! quick.

10:25 AM