and so i cut my hair yesterday. heard of some superstition or somethin which says that when u cut ur hair, the bad luck or somethin goes away or somethin. k nvm. forget it. i really dont know what i'm blogging about.

so anyways. its the LAST day of the year. pretty exciting. wil be having dinner with the extended extended family later. and after that a party. will let you know how it went.

but before that. let me reflect at how this year has been.
so life for me prob started just afetr dec 2005 with quite afew parties(:. however 2006 started pretty awfully.(visit the archive dec 2005).

apart from meeting so many new peeps and strengthening all relationships with family and all my loved ones, this year also brought one of the biggest setback for me. the TOTAL screwup of the BIG O's. ROAR!
but with family support, everythin went well. became EMOTIONALLY stronger, having to deal with most of it on my own. with self -reflection and all. come to think of it, it is also one of the best things that happened this year. it made me a different person. i see life much differently now. and i want life without all the superficial stuff. i want it real.
responsibility has definitely been nutured in me. this year.

everything will eventually be fine. like how it is now. i made the right choice in the end.

"most people spend more time thinking of making the RIGHT choices. however what is more important is choosing a choice and exceling and doing well, making the choice the RIGHT ONE. this applies for everything.from studies to relationships to work."- quoted from J MAMA, my uncle(:


this year i've definitely become more closer to my brother. one person who was there when i needed someone. i remember one of his message he sent me. "zawani, everythin will be fine. i'll talk to you when i get home. for now, get some ben and jerry's chocolate ice cream. it might help". roar. i love him. thanks for everything.

i;ve learnt so many things this year. like as much as we might not beleive this, our family is the only one we should confide in. and they'll be there all the time for you. and they love you alot((:

whats one new year resolution i have?
tell you later.

hate to say this. but i want to watch high school musical. the song's pretty catchy.

you know. i havent really blogged abt it.

well the heart's cracked once again. as sceptical as i was before abt certain things, i've become MORE!
one word. ROAR!!

so well. its pretty sucky. very sucky actually. i mean he's a CHRONIC LIAR. and i was so very oblivious to it.

i'm a gullible bitch. gosh. so yes. someone told me abt it. i'm so far away. it sucked cause at this point of times, ALL you ever want to do is just go to starbucks and cry, whine and cry more to your bestfriend. which by the time i actually do see her face, i'll not dry la. which is a gd thing!!!

i dont know why but as heartbroken and scattered as i am, i cant seem to shed one tear also.

maybe it hasnt gotten into my numbskull yet that everything's pretty much over. ahaha.
okay i'm not a numbskull. my sister is.

so well. its seriously over. and it wont come back. its sp veyr humiliating.

besides narash laughing his lungs out and constanly stating the fact the i was supper stupid and dumb not to have seeked his ADVICE,
narash has been of pretty gd help. thank you FRIEND(:

so well. i've decided to leave everything in the past. besides this year has been a pretty awful year.what over will never come back. it ended for a reason and hence bringing it back will just be as stupid as actually even being with him.

i shall usher into the new year with no commitments to non-sensical stuff(:

so well. till then I LOVE ALL OF YOU(:
and be as happy as i AM(:(:

my sister left on monday. and eversince tehn its been boring.

however, i've had the company of HARRSEH AND NARASH(: thank god. i get super excited when i recieve calls. i've been deprieved eversince i came here. no calls. with the m'sian line, everything's prety cool cause i'm just a call away.

suprisingly, my dad has been calling me ALOT. and like when i asked" dad, how come u call so many times?" his reply was awesomely sweet.
"daddy miss you la" with the "la" behing. gosh ahhahaa.

my mum arrived on the 22nd. so everything's cool again. will be leaving to MIRI on the 24th for a few days and then coming back on th 28th.

and oh yES!!! my number is +60146807257 if u're using hp to call.
if u'er using house phone, add in the code 02082

but if u're calling after the 2nd, use the code 02085
to nisa and EVERYONE ELSE *HINT HINT*

and if u still cant contact me, call narash. aah he'll help you.

i'll love to recieve anyone's calls. ((:

hello. am in kuching already. went for reflexology today with my sister and my grandparents((:

going for facial tmr morning at 9! its going to be hard to get up. anyhows. i forgot to mention this. on friday before i left, narash, nisa and i saw the prettiest dress ever. okay well to me la. it was the prettiest. and i cant stop thinking of it! i pray its still there when i get back. or hopefully a nicer one.

so yes gtg now.

bye bye s'pore):

spent my day with bestfriend and narash at PS starbucks. and then after that at karthik's place with his family. he wasnt there though. working or somethin like that.

the time at starbucks was ((:

and to aunty chitra. THANK YOU for everything. hope u liked the brownie. thank you to uncle logan as well.




and we still havent met.

went for fez's chalet today!! awesome awesome. nisa looked gd(:

after mummy fetched me, we went to komalas at ECP and guess who we saw??
ISMAIL.

ahaha. ROAR!! effing good looking. mummy spoke to him and blah blah. gosh. rocking.
k well one more day left.




things have been really sucky with him.
hitting rock bottom soon i reckon.

today was (:

i watched HAPPY FEET with harresh in the morning cause he had training in the afternoon. tehn we met elton for a while at PS.

and then i was at starbucks with harminder. met sarafeen(: one pretty lady. was pretty fun just talking and drinking caramel frap((:. narash joined us after that.

went for dinner at night with paris, beyonce(sam) and nigel. dillon dropped by.
and like after dinner i had to meet narash again to pass his jacket. all the way in SERANGOON ROAD!!! he better be thankful. like i went so far! ahaha.

few days left in s'pore):