hahaha.
my tuition kid is really bloody cute.
you know, sometimes, well most of the time,
i dread waking up to go for tuition.
but each time upon reaching tuition, i feel so happy.
she performs for me. dances and sings.
but i get quite scary when i teach maths,
and today she almost cried. SCARY.
hahahha

i want to go al ameeen.
simpang bedok.
east caost park.

An affirmation for you would be:
A lift of joy in the times of trouble

The word of wit when we’re weighted down
the lift of humor when we’re heavyhearted
The ray of hope to blow away our black clouds
The enthusiasm and energy to start over and over again
The creativity to charm and color a drab day
the simplicity of a child in a complex situation


i fell for his stupid trap.

take me away,
to better days.

You know what they say:
If you love something, set it free ... And right now, if you like someone, let them be -- who they are, on their own terms. This is the way to find out whether it's a real match.

& everyone told her,
"you got to know what you want!"
well. 2 of her friends la.

SHAZAWANI BEGUM.
YOU NEED TO BUCK UP.
all your school work is going to snow ball.

i need starbucks.
caramel and whipped cream.
and the bestfriends,
who are totally angry with me not spending time with them.

can july just come now?
savrina. savrina.
you come back and i promise i will make it up to you.
definitely wont be like your last summer holidays.
i'll spend most of my time with you.
and i wish you were here everyday,
but thats been a wish since e longest time.
I MISSS YYOU. &LOVE YOU.
sorrry for not giving you e attention.
i know how mad you are at me. hahaha.
siglap is calling for us.
mas ayu wants us. hahha
so come back sunflower, blueberry lady of mine.
i want to stay over, and waake up with lontong your mum prepared(:
hahaha.
bake brownies. and sing song for nisa's birthday.
go running with you, cheering me on.
sports days and road runs were e best cause of you.
mother tongues period!- our chocolate eating times(:
hahaha. valentines' days. bedok long john silver.
looking back, and reminising(:

& i totally cant believe how i have been so invovled with my own life,
for the longest time, and neglected people and things that mean so much more.
i guess it really took me a year to realise this.
and its only in these self-reflection times when i do realise that,
i havent been who i am.
with you. nis.

oh god.
i swear i really miss you both now):
and the one amzing thing that i prob take advantage of is,
the fact that you and nis will always be there.
its pretty evident that when i do not seek advice from e two of you,
everything goes not too well.
hahha.
nis prob gives up la on the advices. she has her own way of giving advices.
hahhaha.

nis nisa.
chan nurul nisa.
hahahahaha(: its beeen forever since you came over with black forest chocolates and greeen tea,
and did nothing but talk while lying down.
going to mac. and coming back. and still talking.
you do the sweeetest things.
its annoying how, we are in the same bloody country but can hardly meeet.
and i know the reason for that.
so lets not rub it in.
hahhaha.

and nisa chan.
i would lve to meet ur bf sooon.

AND,
i want to walk on the beach
sing songs and talk to you.
i want to go starbucks and stone.
i want to read magazines all afetrnoon long,
while eating chicken chunks and potato wedges.
i want to go to kallang dragon boat center that area.
i would love to watch romantic hindi movies all day long.
i want to call every single person i lvoe and tell them "you mean alot to me"
i want to become e girl my younger sister will look up to-highly impossible though, hahahah.
i want to go bedok stadium.
i want to have the desire, determination and drive to work harder.
i want to be a better person.
i want to laugh till my stomach hurts.

i neeed to learn it e hard way.
i should be on my own for ahwile. even if i know its going to be bloody hard, i will.
i have to(:
its prob only then when you realise the things u need/want,
and perhaps the ppl ard you may understand you more.
i want to stop having the slightest hatred(too strong a word, prob dislike) towards boys.
i want shaza(:

i love shaza. hahahaha.
(sometimes we have to continuously say these things to ourselves.)


shaza will going off for awhile.
putting the pieces of her life in the correct places.
you can choose to be part of it.
and you could choose not to.
she'll understand(:
actually shaza will still be around la. hahhaha.


easy come, easy go.- prob doesnt apply for money only. but ppl tooo.



if i told you it was all meant to be.
would you believe me, or would you disagree?

you entered my life unexpectedly.

the feeling was amazing.
i never felt this way for a long time.
the butterflies in the stomach. hahaha.
the smallest things that made me happy.


unexpected what you did to my heart.

your arms around me tight,
everything felt so right.
its been a while since i really felt this way.


would you catch me when i fall?
& when will you hold my hand again?

Just say 'no' to anything new for the moment.
Usually you're not such a stick-in-the-mud,
but for right now you have enough to deal with.

Be very careful not to put the needs of other people ahead of your own right now.

i'd love to take a walk.
away from everything.

I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late

it defnitely isnt(:

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