IGNORING NEGATIVITY...

what can i say?!
spending my new year in the hosiptal was a unique experience(IGNORING NEGATIVITY)
the car is totally terribly smashed in the front. thanks god noone was hurt. except for shock.
couldnt see any of my family members. needed NISA there. needed to talk to her. somone who wouldnt remind me of the horrrible incident.
so greatful to have fren like nisa, ahmad, danial, farhan, fuad, illysaa... they came. i m really sorry to have disturb u guyz when u were havin ur new year celebrations.. but thanks for comin. no words can express my appreciation.
NISA... thanks for bein there. thanks for sleepin over and accompanying me through the night. made me feel so much better. seriously when i saw u i was laughin n smilin. could forget the bad accident.
juz so greatful noone was hurt... except for the car!!!!!!! argh!
u know what?! they gave some anti-depression pills.. it really totally works n all.. i left no emotions. juz laugh n laugh. but my mind ws killin me.. ahah.. weird situation to be in..but well..
i m better now..
thanks to my family...

and these people NISA, AHMAD, FARHAN, DANIAL, FUAD, ILLYASAA.....
thanks alot for being there.n sorry for disturbing ur new year celebrations....
u know.. they came down to the hospital at 1 am... the sweetest lot..
seriously i m blessed to have fren like this.. but i really feel fuck damn guilty .. u all should have juz stayed for the whole celebrations.. sorry..
yan ling thanks for msgin to check if i was alrite...

I LOVE U GUYS.......
the accident happened before 12.. after we had dinner at kampong chai chee...
a new year eve i will never forget.........
i love my life...
welcome 2006. *BIG SMILE*

CARA LOH!!!!!!!
damn fuckin sad. cant hold the tears. feelin so sad. i love u so much. thanks for the joy n all u broght . seriously.. it may be a very common line said by most prob out of the sake of sayin it.
but for u darlin this line totally fits.
damn, u know cara, i regret not spending time juz now. what i thought was... if i dont give the lasangna she wanted before she leaves i m gonna regret. but then i realised damn.. i should have juz spent time with u instead. juz hope it made u smile.
damn so many many many memories with u. starting from SEC 2 with our terrible MATHS teacher. who kept pickin on us coz we kept failing maths and coz we kept talkin coz we sat together... sec 2 the damn BLACK CROW GANG. you, ellaine, cassandra n i playin the swing at the field. flirting with mr lim teck meng. who knew ur crush for him developed.. n lasted till sec4..
FOOD & NUTRITION class with MRS FATONAH n miss GOH YAN LING! .... damn i sat beside u.. n we totally love the subject!.. that COURSEWORK we were so damn terrified of. OAC.. DRAGON BOAT ... CAMPS ... and talkin to u bout my secret sweetheart. which in the end everyone knew abt.
i love u..
damn. eating at ure hse before dragon boat with goh yan. and running to DB centre coz we were late n all. then goh yan n u vomitting. damn yan ling damn funny..
SAMIRAH.. MANSHYA... YAN LING... SHAZA.... CARA.
samirah funnier. cara mooney, too many things to write abt. will contiue...

its four in the morning. chattin with savrina online. god knows why i still aint sleepy. my whole sleepin cycle is so distorted.
got a really long day later on. must get up to meet the girls to get cara's stuff. yan n i were thinkin of what to get for cara. thinkin for so long. and now we know the perfect thing.
cant wait. ahah. so well.goona cook lasangna for cara later on in the afternoon. i love her.. we love her. alrite. i better get to sleep..

FINALLY!!!!
babe.. so happy to recieve a call from u juz now. was waitin for it for the past few days. so savrina n i talked for ard forty-five mins-i think. wasfun. seemed as though she was still in singapore. so near. but well.. eric is a really nice guy. ahaha. savrina is one lucky bitch. ahahah

then like, today i slept at 6 30 in the morning. was on conference in ahmad's phone with yan,nisa,rajiv and myself. each one of them kept leaving one by one by one. so ahmad n i talked till ard 5 forty. so well i woke up ard three or four i think when savrina called.

gonna go out with my bestie for dinner. then meet the rest. wait not sure of the rest are comin. so well. gotta go get ready. bye..

12:52 AM

Wednesday, December 28, 2005 »

the day hasnt ended yet.
maple n i were bitchin about____.ahahha. a secret between us. had have talkin to her.
damn it.
feelin do damn sad. keep think about the 31st. why must she leave. i love her to bits.
CARA!!!! i really hate to know that on the 1st of jan 2006.. i wont be able to see you!
i love u.
will blog later. wait. gotta go somewhere for a while.

7:17 AM

so what happened today?
yan n i had to meet samirah n cara for lunch. nisa came along. before meetin samirah, yan n i went to get flowers to apologise to our dear fren,samirah!
ahmad, farhan and leonard joined us as well! the whole thin was fun except for certain parts.
so well, wait! danial came along too later on. oh and mabel n yong meng for a while.
n like we were sitting n talkin n talkin. wait before that i think we went to the arcade with samirah to play. ahmad, yan ling, samirah n i were playin that game. u know the one where some disc-like thing will come out from somewhere then we must hit it into some hole at the opponenets side? u know? k thats gd. so we played that game. the one i juz told u about.

ahmad n myself VS samirah and yan ling.

n then. as yan was using all the force she had to hit that disc, ahmad's hand was at the worng place at the wrong time. that disc hit ahmad too hard! he had some internal bleeding. small one.
but of coz. he wasnt angry coz it was an accident.
so well.. then everyone had to go home one by one by one.
farhan, danial, yan n i went to the library to read magazines.. dan n farhan left.
yan ling n myself walked ard marine parade aimlessly. then ard eight like that we went home.

i met mr ong for dinner at long john's. then went home.

6:46 AM

so like yan n i had to do the deco for the yesterday's party rite.... but we came late. anyways, when we got there, we started doin everythin. but guess what?! decorating a function room isnt as easy as it sounds! me n yan were so confused on where to start? what to do?
then yan had an idea. and everythin went well. ahaha!
the party was fun. the games musical chairs was a good start off. got the party rollin. yan darlin was awesome. she was the only girl who was still in the game till the second last round! awesome hey! well what can i say? there's a reason why she's My fren! but wait! she won cause she was damn fierce to everyone. she pulled the chairs from people who had already sat on them! ahaha. edmund was so nice la. he gave up his seat to yan during MuSicaL chairs. sweet guy. but also offered her a broken chair.
so well the game dog n bone was fun. the kembagan boys versus broadrick guys. was really fun. except for the part when a fren of mine got injured. but well he's alrite now.
SAMIRAH is so very angry at me and yan ling.

*samirah sehabdeen, WE ( shaza and yan ling) are very sorry.

my darlin mommy wanted me to be home by ten! thanks to ahmad, she extended it to ten thirty! ahah.. but well i came home at 11 30 like dat. almost got killed. but didnt! phew.came home was talkin to nisa, danial and till three.. with miss goh yan ling.

6:18 AM

Sunday, December 25, 2005 »

juz came back from dillon's hse. before that was at my sis frenz place for christmas too..
life's been rockin. savrina, waiting for ure call. sorry u coulnt call that day. had a sorethroat.
juz call anytime. will pick up the phone n my mum wont scream aahahah... got somethin important to tell u.. so badly!! quick. really interesting! ahahha.. love.

9:57 AM

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.

Santa can you hear me
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all I hope in a big red bow

Can't be long under the mistletoe
He's all I want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want. just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
santa thats my only wish this year!

1:59 AM

22/12/2005
cara's party rocked ass! was a blast. had lotsa fun. dancing n dancing n eating n talkin...
love those bunny ears! the gals n i had so much fun. so well.. met many people. very nice people. ahah.
23/12/2005
met nisa. been awhile since we met up.she's been so busy workin. met rajiv to get the money to buy the deco, at night. was so tiring..
24/12/2005
yan ling cheated us!!!! blady hell. she asked me n samirah to come to the singapore expo saying it was some concert!! then blady fuck! ahaha.. it was some church thin la! they were praying n all..ahah. yan is so dead! ahha.. but it was fun. yong zhi's dancing was nice.. ahhaha... the other part was.. she said we would get presents.. but we din!!!! ahaha..
supposed to buy the deco for the party on the 27th. i think we will be buyin on monday.

1:32 AM

Tuesday, December 20, 2005 »

yeah! juz came back from my holiday at my grandma's hse! yeah!

9:33 AM

Friday, December 09, 2005 »

my darlins...

9:34 AM