All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
(Running through my head)
This is not enough


I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?


I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else so we can be free
Nobody else so we can be free


And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
'Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for meI can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head


Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind

Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?


All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
This is not enough
This is not enough
All the things she said
All the things she said



-TATU!

AMY, MAPLE
so very sweet of u guys. thanks. made my day! ahhah. sorry was so busy. so touched la. u bth! ur faces! ahahah. darlins. dont forget FRIDAY! cant wait. sorry yest. quite busy n all. i gave u bth extra TWO COOKIES! ahaha.
roar! i cant express how i felt in words. ahah. jzu happy.
u bth ah! look so gd yest. i was lookin so god damn yucks! felt so inferior. ahhaha. love u bth. friday!!!!! cant wait. shal inform u all abt alot of things. ALOT!


FRANK... thanks. ur msg made me laugh. ahahha. to think u were tryin to make me feel better! well u did u gd job.. ahahha

frank: "u okie?? i can meet u at ur blocku know if u only want, i will always be there for u..i can buy u a drink.. haha.. smile on girl :)"

okay everythin was fine.. except for the buy u a drink part! ahahah!!hilarious.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY NGU!

i love her. i so mean it. she was my best fren once. a best fren i cant replace. i mean. i know all mestfrenz cnt be replaced. but she was juz diff. as in we loved the same things. shared similar interests. we were crazy over running. always jogging! 2.4 was juz awesome with ehr. a great motivaator. sport days road runs....okay savrina,manshya,disha were GREAT! we were laughing freaks! forever laughing. ROAR! ahah. lovin her. when we had this huge fight. everythin went away. it was a huge misuderstanding.i was a stuck'up bitch! ahah. seriously. that was how she felt. roar. i love u may! gosh. dont ever see may angry. ahahah!
girl hope u're doin fine. hope to catch up. n put all the sour past away. ahahah! which i know we have coz it has been many years already. i wanna go running again! at the canal! ahah come back s'pore quick!

9:20 PM

Saturday, March 11, 2006 »

oh damn. juz now. deepan,azmir n rahim came by mrs.fields. ROAR. after work hanged out with them a lil while. had a gd time. freakin funny guys.

well. today i had to distribute free cookie coupons outside paragon. i saw LIWEI! aahh. n TONY..
liwei. damn pretty la! her dressing awesome. i was seriously stun.

anyhows. i brought home muffins again! i want cookies not muffins! theyt call all the not sold cookies "ORPHAN COOKIES" sounds damn sad n pathetic. ORPHAN cookies. tehy dont let us take home. tehy throw it. only on days when i work wih aunties i get to bring home the cookies.

have had lots of thoughts on my mind recently. so many stuff goin on. life's been hectic. this week only one off day. =( cant wait to ride on the bike. i felt damn bad. well i know i will ride on it soon! yeah.
been spending lots of time with frank. he is so much fun. he can have a really interesting conversation with ANYONE! from small kids to frenz to aunties to old people! my mum n aunties love talkin to him. that day when frank n i had dinner at my aunts place with her family, he made us laugh alot. he was helpin me tutor two boys. the way he tutored was so fun. the boys liked him. so well.
we went to jared's hse after that. saw cheryl. jared's sis for the first time.


so like been fuckin busy n all. juz hope to meet up with maple n amy soon before their school starts. harresh as well.

for yan ling, manshya,yazid and samirah... should be meeetin them soon.

grandma's in town. grandpa too. lil cousin too. like finally i will be eating alot again coz her cookin is juz perfect for me.

eversince my brother got passed his driving, he has been driving me ard to where ever i want to go! coz he loves driving. anyhow its nice to have sucha cute guy drive me ard!
SAVRINA come home soon! ahha. but hey i think he has a gf now. ROAR! i hope not. but i think so. but he denies it. i mean he could juz say yes if she was. but he said no. so u see tehre is a possibility.

RILLA! why are u so busy?!
NADIAH!!! dont lie for ur fren! ahahha. n hey. STUDY STUDY. kill ur social life for now. u can always be that social butterfly again. juz have all the people that u really need by ur side at this moment. juz the most important few. ahaha. LIKE RILLA N ME! ahahha.
see u ard soon.


STARBUCKS... STARBUCKS.. been a long time. ROAR! i need!

nisa. i am here babe. take all the time u need to figure out whatever u need to. i will always try to be there for u.
and i m gonna take this time to analyse whatever has to be analysed like what u said. =)

HOT.CHICK -> "you're spoilt enough,and i just wanted u to handle issues on your own. we tend to change by starting with the little stuff.just take ur time n analyse.much love<3"

seekin ur advice! rejection may hurt. but not as much as leading someone on. if u get what i mean. i suck at stating whatever is in my mind in words. ahahha. i have a fuckin poor vocab. ROAR=(!

andabt the guys. i m handling it maturely. n it aint a big thing. i shant make a big thing out of a small one next time ahaha.

stayin out of touble.

hey.. cant wait. gonna pierce another earhole. this time, at the place i really wanted. the top of my ear! yeah! goin with my mum. prob one of the days this week. juz hope not later.

feez.. think happy thoughts. i m totally shocked by what u told me. well. family or fren! roar! juz put it all aside. tmr. go roller blade. go alone if u have to. i juz see the gd things in life. n hey jus be;coz of that situation, dont feel that u cant trust anyone anymore. love. i feel there's more to it. dont feel down. u're lucky coz things din get any worse. SMILE =)


I LOVE EVERYTHIN. smile.
need sometime to figure certain things out. other than that. i'm feelin great.

8:47 AM

Friday, March 10, 2006 »

well.
it was a pleasent suprise to meet ahmad and his mum buyin cokies at mrs.fields jus now! ahah. n sebastian.
its really nice to have ppl u know come coz like i m dead bored at times there when like the sales of cookies, brownies n muffins are so stagnant on weekdays.
tonia and chandini have been droppin by. thanks.

well.
nigel. yan ling.samirah. manshya. cara. i miss u all.

amy and maple!! its your holidays now. go spend more time with one another! ahahha. see u bth ard soon.

SAVRINA! i need to ask u somethin. n update u abt somethin.
gonna call u soon. hey blueberry sunflower bestie, how is everythin? LONG JOHN's SILVERS. can u believe it? since work started i have eatin LJS ALONE!!! ROAR! so sad. n then i think of bedok LJS n the times spent there.
i want to go to 19 ELITE TERRANCE n spent the night there again! n eat the cream pasta n bake brownies!
n sit n watch any movie on the Tv.. with ALL THE PEOPLE WE LOVE...
yucks u rmb that stupid movie we watch at ur house called MAY?! damn weird movie. freakin sick at the same time. yucks.
THE PLAYGROUND INCIDENT! during the last sleepover at ur house!


NISA... SORRY.. i know i have been such an irritating bitch that past few days annoying u to the damn core. yucks. I KNOW I HAVE BEEN FUCKIN IMMATURE.. like some sec1 kid!
SORRY.. tell me NOW! talkt o me abt it love. like everythin that is in ur heart. i want to know.
i love u. u have really been there whenever i needed u like countless times. n like always there to help me regulate my thoughts n make me think straight! thanks. i know u are someone i can count on, in times of need.
i seriously cant express my appreciation towards u, for being here with me in my life.
i guess there are certain things u wish not to hear from me. so certain things shall be left unsaid in the future.
hey cute lil gnome bestie. I'M SORRY! I LOVE U!
tell me whats in ur mind n heart now n u'd prob feel better n less annoyed. ahahah

FEEZA.. hey sexaye DB partner of mine! ahah. so u're a lil annoyed as well... SORRY..
but u haven told me why. ahahha. u know. no matter how irritated annoyed or piss u n nisa can get u bth are still here when i needed u two. THANKS. nisa is one chick we bth can rely on. i hope she feels the same way abt us. but i know for me. she has her doubts ahah. to nis, i m this irresonsible spoilt brat. ahha. u bth are crazy fun. prob coz u bth were childhood buddies!
playin "cookin-cookin" n roller blades. ahahha. catchin too! ahahha
hey. feez n nis. thanks. i have seriously never felt lonely. sorry for pissing u bth off. i kinda noe why u bth are annoyed. shall change.

so well. mu cuzz is so cute la. this morning he kept knockin my door n then when i opened it he ran away. n then i realised he wrote somethin on a piece of drawing block i two chocolate bars beside it. the paper said " i GEFT THIS 12:30. i am ASHRAF. from AHSRAF. To SHAZA"! and many hearts drawn all over it. gosh. blady sweet boy. melt my heart. he is only six ROAR> makes me heart melt more. roar! ahahha
okay well he did say "I AM ASHRAF" he said " i MIM ASHRAF". well his spelling sucks. however, it doesnt matter.

i miss zadeev! he is prob damn huge now. ahhah.

8:04 AM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006 »

FUCKIN DUCK. quack quack! stop QUACKING around! piss me off only. ASS.

damn you. how da fuck i ruin ur fuckin loser life. i dont fuckin care if u fuckin hate me or love me. juz dont give me that fuckin fake front n say it or show me that u hate me la ASS. i dont hate u. i m fuckin piss at u. RIGHT NOW. still give me that blady nice front.

i'd rather u not talk to me or/and have anythin to do with me... acknowledgin the blady fuckin fact that u hate me then u fuckin acting all nice n " oh hi! i miss u too!"

FUCK. u know. i forgot abt ur existence a long time ago. as in. existence as in the role of importance u played in my life.

frankly speakin this has come as a suprise to me. coz. i din expect this. i dont think i did anythin directly to hurt u. prob indirectly. i dont know.
juz curious to know how i fuckin screwed up ur life.

ahaha. ALRITE.. i aint ANGRY ANYMORE....

basically MY DAY rocked. spent the day with FEEZA,NISA,JARED,FRANK,SOME TALL GUY....
and i met kegan. so basically.. it was juz like last time where jared,frank,savrina,kegan,nisa, n i and many others used to hang out togetehr...
well. jared.

today rocked. blog more later

6:15 AM