BACK TO BROADRICK SECONDARY...

gosh. a bitter pill to swallow. ahaha. but well. its much better now. like i was so not ready for school. had to buy black hair spray at like 2 in d morning the day before school!! sprayed hair every morning before school. got damn annoying.after a few days i din care. no one caught me. besides it was so obvious my hair was highlighted but the teachers din say anythin. till.. one morning.. after two weeks MR TAN!!. ahahah. well. mr tan's cool. so well i dyed it back already.. gd student. =)

i think yazid's been really sweet. coz i have been late for school like four times in d first week. he calls me every morning to wake me up! so that i wont go late. ahah. rocks. love him. n he really take cares of his frenz.

GOH YAN LING.. thanks for ur school shoes. ahahah. two pairs! i love u. your msg that day made me smile. so sweet. i wont go school late. well i will try. but seriously i cant help it!

somehow, though i was pretty reluctant in the beginning to come back to school, now, come to think of it, it was a good move. but its still a real bitter pill to swallow. like, i m sure i would never choose to wake up at seven to study n i prob like waste time n prolong the times in which i plan to study n all. ahah

well, i knew i was gonna re-take. n during o'levels i totally gave up half way. coz in my mind there was always such thin as retakin. at that point of time i thought everythin would be alrite even if i retook o'levels n all. but i guess its diff now. coz like now,being in this situation i realise that so many other factors are involved. its emotionally heartbreakin, confidence stealin n juz basically a totally crappy feelin that cant be described. but nothin to do with the fact that i am disapointed in my results, coz i really din study.. so basically there is nothin to be disappointed abt. ahhahaa
but like, i mean i could appeal n get into RP. but i guess i should get a proper o'level cert n move on coz like o'levels is really the benchmark. i never felt that way.. till my sis knocked sense into my brain.

i m so fickle that i din know where to go or what to do. till people intervened into the situation.

well i'm glad i met ameer two days before school started. n leonard a week before school started.
whatever he said really got to me. it was then when i realised "i am goin back to broadrick secondary"
he also said the path ahead wont be easy. people would see u in a diff light. n every two days u are sure to feel shitty. ahah'
guess what? its kind of true. ahha. been on a emotional roller coaster ride. i guess prob coz the memories of school. n my mum not allowing me to go for DB. but well ahahah. i m still goin now. its like. better to have finish it once n. for all. but well its eight months more. so well. its a short period of time. I HOPE. ahahha

so anyhow's its great to know that the school's pretty welcoming. n my class he really nice people in it. n there's one "Kevin mong".. i guess there is one "kevin mong" in every class. ahahha. n thousand dollar boy...ahaha.. very fun


the homework.assembly.the comin to school late,teachers. mr J, recess, the p.e. lessons. the rules. the uniform. the copying homwork.the talkin in class. the pissing mdm sim off. the 2.4km. the tie. the F&N practicals.the detention. the blady reading periods. all the lessons. the"waiting for the recess bell". the "waiting for the 1:40 bell". the "i wish mr J finishes his speech quick". the cliiques. the different racial groups.the skipping class n stayin in the toilet. the dragon boat. the "i m late of dragon boat". the physical trainings. OAC. the secret sweetheart.the ex boyfrenz.sec 2 camp.the bitches. the sluts. ahahah.the gatherings at cara loh's house. eating before DB at her house. the sport days. the mother tongue lessons/gossip times.valentines days with savrina,manshya n disha.the fights. the OAC camps. the dragon boat competition. the swimming. that particular swimming incident with yan ling n cara. the star jumps in the swimming pool. the waiting for samirah outside her house door. playing with small kids at tanjong rhu after DB. the "after DB dinner at KALLANG!". the soccer match. the heartbreak. the other heartbreak. prom. the parties after prom.

will be missed.all so close to my heart. and so much more.
school juz aint the same. but well. except fo the uniform n rules n mr J's speech.. the rest can never be the same. ahahha

i love my bestfrenz(SAVRINA n NISA), oac darlins (YAN LING, CARA, SAMIRAH, LYNETTE, JELISA, TONIA, PEI SHAN), dragon boat partner (FEEZAHMAD), MANSHYA.. YAZID.. DILLON school was fun when u were all around. ahahha.


AMY N MAPLE!!!! i hope things get better for the two of u. dinner with the two of u that day was great. i cant afford to lose either one of u. =) love u both

RILLA.. get some time off ur so very busy life for me! quick.