and this was the exact way i felt.
some time back. and i finally found a way to express it.
lyrics from lily allen.

when you first left me
i was wanting more
but you were fucking that girl next door
whatd you do that for

i was so lost back then
but with a little help from my friends
i found the light in the tunnel at the end

now youre calling me up on the phone
so you can have a little whine and a moan
and its only because youre feeling alone

whenever you see me you say that you want me back

at first when i see you cry
yea it makes me smile
at worst i feel bad for awhile
but then i just smile i go ahead and smile

haha.
this post would prob fit like the period during
lets say, march ard there.
so yes.
haha(:

glad, that its over and far far away from me now.