my school week ended well(((:
lovely dinner with rajesh at swensens.
and shalini was there(:

I HAD STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE ICE-CREAM(((:
which made my night.
with the loveliest ice cream, what could make the night better?

and shalini and i shared the chicken baked rice.

it was damn sweeet of rajesh.
thanks for the treat(((:

the night was lovely,
excluding one mishap)):

tonight is loved.
and i want, many many many more nights like this.

sometimes, all you want,
is to be treated like a lady(:

wish for you on a falling star
wondering where you are.




you could be my someone

its been a while since i've been myself.
and today i was.
i have been laughing(:
and i'm happy.

from the trip home with luqman.
to the conversations on the phone.
with shalini and vinod, in tamil.
effing funny and fun.

i've been laughing(:

There’s oceans in between us
But that’s not very far

yoga's lovely gesture made my day.
tuna croissants and butter bun.
thank you(:


its great to know you have sweet,lovely friends in your life.
you feel so well taken care of.

its the 27th.
sean andrews birthday.
haha. how will i ever forget.
my first major crush ever.

I HAVE BEEN EATING ALOT.
much more than usual.
which is unsual.
and alot, means ALOT.

SHALINI'S SISTERS SUPRISE BIRTHDAY(((:

it was an eventful night.
i enjoyed helping shalini out before the event started.
and that includes the writing of invitation cards
and all!
it reminds me so much of the preparations i did,
i for my lovely sister's wedding((:

somehow, i seee alot of me and my sister in
shalini and her sister.which
reminds me of how much i miss her):



the next two weeks are going to be filled with
sleepless nights and never-ending days):
rushing to complete assignments.

i've had one wake up call already.
ict business quiz)):
you have got to keep the flame burning.

my bestfriend and i was suppose to meet on friday,
then it got changed to sat, and then to sunday.
and its sunday today,
and we still hvaent met.
and i still need whipped cream and caramel and YOUR COMPANY.

its the way the guy handles a sticky situation,
that matters
and not the nice, loving, sweeet things he does.

after all,
its the way the person encounter a problem that matters to me.
thats what you should seek for in a relationship.
well, one quality.

i need personal tutoring):
major major neeed.

and, shalini is the sweetest.
sweet secrets cake rocked(:
i CANNOT wait for tmr's party.
you are loved.

and i'm happy we're talking again

The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I've fallen

liberated. thats how i feel.
like, there was something holding me back from dating,
but now.
there isnt.
sometimes, i think boys are stupid.
and i know i shouldnt feel that way.
BUT CANT THEY BE MORE INITIATIVE.


like, I AM SO DAMN ANGRY.

its time to open you heart again.

YOU just wasted your time on someone who didnt even understand you.
to think, you thought he would have known you much better than that.
and to think people change.
oh dear, oh effing naive can you get!
argh.fuck it.
dont waste your time.

I FEEL LIKE RANTING.
well i did.
but i dont want to rant on my blog.
i want to do it, ALOUD.

FUCKIN HELL.
this is an awfully angst-y post.

and to everyone and anyone who reads my blog.
dont ever try to interpret my entries,
cause YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO.

and just so you know, my entries can get damn confusing.
and whatever i type in bold at the begginning or the ending
of any of my entried, can have NO relevance to anything at all.

DONT EVER TRY TO FIGURE ME OUT.
CAUSE YOU WONT EVER BE ABLE TO.

and sorry for this veyr harsh entry.
I JUST NEEEED TO LET IT OUT.
just so you know, no one has ever made me feel this way.
thanks

Cause I've fallen for you boy

9:31 AM

Saturday, May 17, 2008 »

TEA PARTY(:
I EFFING FORGOT MY STEPS, LIKE 3 TIMES!!
HAHAHA.
FOR THE FIRST SONG, WHICH WAS ONLY 1 MIN++
hahha
but some noticed, some didnt.
thank god! hahaha.

well, overall eveyrthing went well((:
GREAT JOB((:
i have hopes for porduction now.
but that is a long time from now.

shalini came over after tea party.
we have having lots of fun(:
she went back at like 6pm, yesterday.

10:35 PM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 »

yesterday i was feeling like
"oh my god! I SUCK AT DANCING !"

and i was thinking.
i've learnt the steps. which took me a LONG time to,
with the help of lovely friends.
and now, its MY TURN to bring the steps out in my style.
which yest was, damn damn NOT NICE!

AND I SAID TO MYSELF.
"YOU CAN DO IT.
YOU WILL DO IT.
YOU MUST DO IT."

SO today i am feeling like
"ok, i can do this. i did do it((:"

and i am thinking to myself that.
"i should believe in myself more.let the confidence ooze out.
and i know anything is possible if i put my heart to it"

AND so, i am now saying to myself.
"GOOD JOB,SHAZ! you did well today. but you have got much more to give, so give it your ALL((:"

2 more days to the real thing.

i want sticky chewy chocolate ice-cream.
and LJS.

10:03 AM

Monday, May 12, 2008 »

east coast mccafe((:
WHIPPED CREAM AND CARAMEL!
the chocolate mint cookies,
is very nice la.

you know, i took the longest bus ride ever.
from marine parade to YCK.
dont ever take 76 from MP, if going to YCK.
i think you should take 135 to amk instead
and walk or take another bus.

few more days to friday.
taking one step at a time.

I LOVE MYA'S HAIR IN THIS VIDEO
I WANT!!! but its close to impossible to get such lovely hair. well for me.
but i still WANT.


It's good to feel self-sufficient, isn't it?

9:10 PM

the events in one's life, together with a few other factors,
mould them.

be it, in the way
they look at things,
how they react to certain things,
the words they use.
and
basically, whatever they do.

similarly, in the recent year/s
my outlook and perspective on life has definitely changed.
for the better or the the worse.
i dont really know.

every now and then, i read my pass entries.
and i realise/ see so many changes.

1:01 AM

we cannot create a future while gazing at the past and ignoring the present.

12:57 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2008 »

SHE IS ONE SWEEET THING.
she bought me this lovely chocolate cake the other day.
and today, she got me cadbury hazelnut chocolate.
she made me smile.
thanks shalini.

so well.just got home from spending time with
khamini,prasath and shalini.
at bishan.

today was mothers' day.

so this is what i did. quite pretty((:
and like we had ice kacang and satay at
changi airport.

and on friday was my mother's last day of work at
kato spring.
so i just had to suprise her

and so i did.
and thanks to kabilan(below)
his help is greatly appreciated.



i was quite happy with how the suprise went,
so i took photos willingly((:
and like, the whole day was a veyr busy one.
had to go for stage arts, stage arts night.
and also help out and be there for ICG, rehersal.

i anticipate alot of hard times this week.

you know, its times like this when you need support
and guidance.
and more support.


almost every single day has been filled with so much to do.
and sometimes, there isnt even time to eat.
or eating jsut slips ur mind.
and skipping meals will just make anyone more temperamental.
cause when u are hungry, you are easily agitated.
so beware!
and not to forget, the lack of sleep that adds to that.

bugis street is loved.
that dress is wanted.
clothes are needed.




i want to know that you will catch me
when i fall.

10:09 AM

Friday, May 09, 2008 »

i spent the morning at the stadium with prasath.
just talking(:

i've had a couple of conversations
at the stadium, with various people this week.

conversations at the stadium is loved.
and somehow so meaningful.

there's no need to reminise about the past,
obviously cause that shit did not last.
so dont get caught up because baby, you'll lose.

11:51 AM

Sunday, May 04, 2008 »

bottle tree park(:
last night was lovely.
we had a little "picnic like" with all those in the above pic.
i'd like to go there again soon.




anyway I PASSED MY BTT((((:
hahha. one step closer to SLK.
i have actually got so much more to say.
but somehow lately.
i dont really want to blog.

besides watching MTV insomnia,tracks for those sleepless nights,
the past two weeks, i have been having late night conversations
with shalini(:
Short, sweet conversations are perfect for your needs.

anyway, shalini.
i hope you are feeling better.
stay strong. and may ur feet get better. or is it ankel/ankle.
and I AM HERE((:

Trust in them to do the right thing, then take a step back

3:25 AM