its the simplest thing that brings a smile on my face,
sometimes.
like today, just receiving a text from nigel(:
I MISS YOU, MR.NIGEL AKA YAZID. & PARIS!
&secondary school seems so long ago.

the bestfriend has gone back.
the past few days before she left was just lovely.
spending time with frank, hasbi, nis and sav is just so close to perfect.
and nothing beats hanging out with friends who have known you
for so damn long. seeing you grow,change.
and i cant wait for the next summer holidays.

there are two months i eagerly anticipate every year.
july and september.
for very obvious reasons.
& the fact that those ppl who are reading this post are close friends,
who happened to be invited to read my blog entries,
you better know why.

i totally love zadeev.
savrina, we can trade brothers.

i want to upload so many pictures,
but i cant.

i want to go to
kallang.SDBA.bedok stadium.tanjong rhu.
and walk past all the lovely, damn pretty houses at tanjong rhu.
reminise a little. haha. or maybe more than a little):

&i need nis there with me.
so i can talk abt everything.
EVERYTHING.
and never have to look back again.
i want to lock everything behind me.
sooon(:

but all of my plans are on hold,
till after the 22nd.
i shall keep the flame burning(:

SHAZAWANI BEGUM BINTE ABDUL KARIM.
I LOVE YOU.ALOT. hahaha(:


i wanted to stay
cause i needed to hear you say,
i love you
i have loved you all along.

everything you hear, well most of it.
is filled with lies.deceit.fakeness.
be sure to filter it out.
everyone is going to say things they want you to hear.
and they are going to tell you all the nice things
about themselves, just to make an impression.
and it might all be fake.
or real.
WE WILL NEVER KNOW.
but there are nice people out there.
so i guess bottom line, dont judge anyone?
or dont judge anyone too quick?
or maybe,
YOU KNOW WHAT, i guess you will just now la.
if the person is plastic, you would just know.
if you dont, ask me.
i'll tell you.


&oh my god. i remember using that word plastic a long time ago.
hahhahaa.

however, who are we to say such things right?
noone.
so i guess, we just shouldnt care.
especially if it doesnt concern you.
but if it does, then do something.
anything.

and as i was reading through this entire entry again, i realise how,
some of the paragraphs just dont link):